Fitting into not 1 but three size 8 dresses, all by different designers. I haven't seen a single digit size in I don't even remember. Not even in my 20s.

I'm still on the side of who cares about downvotes. Sometimes it seems people just don't like you and will downvote. Remove them and they still don't like you.

I downvote when I'm past 'hmm I disagree' and move into 'oh helllllll no'. I'll just start leading in my disagreements with oh hell no, and then you'll know I downvoted.

I even upvote people I don't personally care for. I may not like them but sometimes they're reasonable.

Jesus. I thought I had issues. She doesn't need a boyfriend, ANY boyfriend, she needs therapy.

And no married people. It can wait until papers are signed. No married people ever under any circumstances ever. EVER. I'm not on a high horse here, I speak from experience. I don't care if it worked out for so and so. Just don't. It can (though rare) get your ass drug into court with them or get CPS up your ass and it's not good for anyone.

The Reach - October, Desdemona, Sofie
Haunted Memories - Minna

I staffed on SI as Epona. I believe I was staff other places, but only minor and I have surely blocked it from memory. Poe on Trinity? This is vague.

Now...let's go through some history, as near as I can remember it...
(Minus Castle d'Image because I can't remember 20+ year old chars other than they were stupid as fuck)

AmberMUSH - Carlotta, Portia (and others...can't remember.)
Chronicles of Amber - Portia
Road to Amber - Portia (Yeah, I reuse names like crazy), Desdemona, Alexis

HellMush - Dabriel

The Dreaming - Candi (the pooka who was a squirrel/alicorn)
Emerald Dreams - Eileen (selkie)
DWR - I want to say...Raven? Some vamp that hung out with a bunch of Sluagh
Metro (the first) - Murder? A sluagh
Mednights - Danette, Eileen,(both satyrs), October (Gangrel) ... Man I miss some of the people from this game hard
That Larryghost game that the name is escaping me with the exploded veil - Sin (Sidhe)
Shadowed Isles - Thursday, Jocasta, Saskia the Highlander immortal (this was never a good idea)
Darkness Falls (Falling?) - Star the demon
Anita Blake games - October...?? Some dingbat Dryad also well who's name escapes me.
Crystal Bridges - Lirilith (wtf was I on?)
Twin Cities - Olivia
Trinity - Olivia

There's been a lot forgotten in my very long history of Mu*ing. Some day I will put together some of the WHO lists for the games and logs I still have remaining. I have logs from 2002. Seriously. They're a spotty collection but I have them.

@Arkandel True. You will not get jacked without setting out to get jacked on purpose. That wasn't a motivational page though, it's a workout developed by that chick for your butt to make it bigger and rounder.

@JaySherman Isn't that just the worst?! I eat under my BMR though and never eat back exercise calories. I went from morbidly obese (the shame and horror!!!) to now just 20 over weight. 70 pounds and counting! You can do it! My final goal is 30 pounds away!

https://instagram.com/p/120nwtG0Dl/

Interview today for mega awesome job, feeling super about it. Weight dropped this morning. Dress fits better than in the store. My skin has decided to be amazing. Humidity is decent so hair is not frizzballs. Cute shoes are cute. I'm totally going to own this.

I don't like it when people give me shit over what and how much I eat. (Which oddly enough never happened when I was really fat but almost 100 pounds later people come out of the woodwork to have an opinion)

I'm not going to judge another persons love of delicious junk.

I don't like people who can't do some things by themselves either but I also like togetherness things. That said I've been successfully doing things by myself for 6 years. That makes being forever alone sound like I'm just strong and independent. Winning!

Headed to the beach with friends and all the sunscreen money can buy. And a hat.

Halloween decorations. They're already out yay! And $50 corsets like whaaaat. All the upcoming goth social gatherings require new corsets. My old ones are too big.

@Macha Sounds about right. It was pretty well known around here that it wasn’t exactly a safe environment. The internalized misogyny that keeps that running makes me insane.

@faraday That’s fair. I haven’t even checked out the web stuff. I haven’t connected to a game in years. Since The Reach really I think.

@Misadventure I think we’re on the same page with the bot thing. Thinking about it, frankly I don’t see why it couldn’t have the conveniences were used to. Likely the reason why there aren’t bots now for that are likely just that no one thought about it.

We expect a lot of front end work on a game before we give it much of a chance. A grid, all the systems, the back lore, etc…and then most of us end up teleporting to the same 3 places or temp rooming. Half the cool hooks the people write to start the game get ignored, mages barrel though and change the setting because mages gonna mage, that sort of thing.

Looking back I can pretty honestly say I feel bad for people who put so much work into a game that got ignored, derailed, over run….like my bad. I’m sorry y’all.

@Misadventure A billion years ago I wanted to join the SCA. I was quick to find it was (around here at least) a non-starter if you weren’t rich enough to be fancy, and very inflexible with time and financial demands. It was also full to the brim with the same people who ran in the pagan circles, ie a bunch of older white people who hid their racism by declaring they were into Norse gods and full of creepy old ‘poly’ dudes who were all too eager to ‘help’ you out if you were a rather young woman, who were with old women who looked the other way in regard to the man’s behavior and then punished you for being preyed upon. It was downright absolutely unsafe to be a bi woman.

I would have hoped that in 20 years more progress toward inclusion would have been made. That doesn’t seem to be the case.

This was an interesting read though, I hadn’t considered some of their sticking points to be rooted in victorian colonialism, but it makes so much sense.

I tried to get my kid to explain, but like…they couldn’t explain the technical stuff nor relate to my MU experience, and holy shit 15 year old me playing a pooka on The Dreaming couldn’t dream up the insane drama these kids got going on with Warrior Cats so….I was SUPER lost. It didn’t help that there were like 5 of them on a call and they all wanted to tell me crap. (Tbf I also was too dumb to understand GTA RP, so the entire concept of computer based RP that isn’t on a mu may just be lost on me)

So, can someone grown explain Discord rp to me, a lifelong MU person? Is it like playing on AOL Red Dragon Inn with a central meeting and then breakout rooms or are there perma rooms and bots and shit? Pros? Cons? I can see a huge pro in not building a grid because holy crap that’s annoying and the last time I honestly organically navigated a grid has to have been in the 90s on CyberSphere. Even then I’m almost certain I legit just followed people, I don’t remember, I’ve slept since then.

Also, y’all are my people so you’ll understand my general expectations. The people who take 5 lines of text to say hello and god forbid we have nothing to say, that’s at least 10 lines of describing that you didn’t do anything this pose round.

Yes, I could just join one and find out. But that’s not going to happen if I don’t remotely understand things because otherwise I’ll just avoid it for forever and potentially anxiety out of something that could be fun.

I’m also apprehensive because discord is just so…discordy. I can’t figure out how to make it a little less visually cluttered so I do get a bit lost. Though, thinking about it, it can’t be much different than keeping up with straight game text that just scrolls. I just generally have a lot trying to get my attention on discord.

Tl;dr - is discord rp legit, how do it works, is it hard to navigate, and is it all teenagers playing warrior cats or are there places for psycho milf necromancers on the path of Doom? (asking for a friend bc I’m not a degenerate and if anyone says otherwise they are a liar)

@chibichibi I’ll be super in when/if Ladder opens! I’ve been kinda itching to play Mage again! I promise to not make any zombie armies, maybe just a small platoon or three. Nothing bigger than a Battalion I swear!

@rucket Indeed. I logged in but I don’t think I said anything. To be fair it had been actual years before then.

@downthespiral Ooh yes!! Jocasta was for sure a name I used, a couple times. Hell I don’t remember what I had for dinner yesterday but I believe she was a ghoul of some flavor?

@coin I show up when one least expects!

I can totally see not wanting to report it. Just talking about it causes problems, but it shouldn't be the victim's problem. It sucks that it is. I had sexual harassment 'training' at work, done by outsourced, professional HR. She said the law only protects women, there are more false reports than true ones, and how men should avoid at risk behaviour like don't be alone with a woman, or tell a joke, ever. It was literally the most horrifying thing to partake in, I about had a conniption, but there were only 3 other women at the entire company, period. So no one cared.

In the end, the men declared it's best to just not speak to the women again unless it's a must. It wasn't a month later that one of the two female devs quit.