Posts made by Macha

You guys .. The whole 'people walking/standing behind me, need my back to a wall' - I thought that was just me. (and maybe some of my PTSD. My abuser would come up behind me while I was sitting and grab my neck or my hair, etc - so it's probably both). And yet, I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, because these things - they're not /just me/. I'm 'weird' but I'm not alone.

@Ninjakitten I attempted to link it, but it tells me the url expired. I have a copy of it, if you give me somewhere to email it?

So uh... someone I follow on social media, has been doing some video chats with various experts about autism and being on the spectrum. She has a daughter who is diagnosed autistic, and took a test, that heavily suggested she may be, as well.

I took the test. Let's just say I never, ever, thought some of the things I do/feel/etc, could be autism related. I thought everyone felt/did/etc those things

This looks so cool. I might need to get this.

Pain, pain, and more pain. I can't get away from it, and it is exhausting. I am trying to find a new place to move to, that I can afford and maybe even save some money, and I'm just stressing myself out, which doesn't help me sleep, especially with pain. It's just an endless cycle, and I need to wake up when I /can/ seem to sleep, because work. Bleh.

@Alamias Oh man. The feels. I adored him.

@SuperiorHuron I am coming to kidnap Winston. He and Logan can play Rope all day long. Logan loves playing Rope with other dogs.

@SuperiorHuron I just found out. Devil went down to Georgia was a very common song in my kiddo days. I'm so sad.

@Auspice My father cooked way better than my stepmother can. The problem was getting him to do it. Because of course, he believed he was the man of the house, and blah blah blah

Maybe this is part of my 'problem'. I never looked up to women (Other than my grandmother, who was a badass - but also was not a 'typical' woman, certainly not for her times). I didn't have a mother from 4 onwards - it was my older brother, and watching what he did. I mean, I guess I looked up to Princess Allura on Voltron a little, for refusing to sit back and just 'be a princess'.

I raged when my (much younger) sisters loved Twilight. It hurt me sooooo bad.

That t-shirt is currently high in my rotation. (though mine is blue). And it's on 6 dollar shirts, so I mean... I couldn't go too wrong.

Dear boss, I get it. My co-worker/teammate has been slacking off majorly since we started working from home. We both know he's smoking pot constantly and fucking off.

But I JUST got hired on to the company, and you expect me to do the work of two people? How about you call him and rattle his cage, instead of complaining to me, and putting MORE work on me, than my fair share?

I am SO FUCKING TIRED of people who can't handle even mild confrontation.

Nick Cordero, actor, 41. Dead from Covid-19

@Derp Well, I was a kid. Didn't all little kids roll their eyes at super sappy love songs?

I entered a silly contest about streaming like 24 hours of true crime stuff. I didn't win the big prize, but it got me a free month of the service, so I'm excited to check it out.

My roommate who works for an italian import deli - brought me home a gift. Their pasta salad is so good, and she brought me home a bowl, just for me.

@Ganymede Because I can not be arsed to make actual food before like 4pm these days. And I'm not allowed to drink bourbon while on steroids. Sad.

Oh heeeeeeeyy. This lunchable has cookies in it!

I have lain awake many a night, reliving my worst hits, again and again.

Then someone asked me to remember something humiliating someone else did. And I couldn't, at least not in any sort of quick fashion.

So I am trying to stop agonizing.