Posts made by Macha

@JinShei Those bastards!

@JinShei Like can we get a streaming trail cam or something? I could use the calm!

600 cases. Because the office supposed to do them, can't. On TOP of my regular work load. Yeah yeah, I get until July 1st, but that's still more than 35 cases a day. Which is my daily case output on my normal work. So fuuuuuuuuuck you, City office.

@Wretched I feel called out.

@tek I don't know where you live, but there may be laws about him using the unit as a Air BNB - if it was formally an apartment. Apparently there's a huge shortage of livable places, because people are doing what he's doing.

@Sunny I love the adorable names

'My' Chinese place closed with the pandemic. And no where else I have tried have measured up. Sad.

"Oh hey, we know you've been doing /all/ of the outreach for your office, though it's usually two of you. You've been doing really well! Here's a couple more cases from other offices on the team, so you can help them out and keep busy."

2 days later: "Hey, though you've got all those other cases, here's 60 more someone else couldn't get done, though they had all last month. You've got 3 days to get them all contacted. Twice. "

Add in anxiety and crap from the rest of my life... and I'm just exhausted.

I've been working on a project lately that has me neck deep in 80s music. Rush, Eddie Money, Ratt, Oingo Boingo, Poison, Boston, Aerosmith... Spotify playlists!

I will say when I need totally juvenile giggles and good music? Ninja Sex Party. They've been used a lot, lately, to try and keep my sense of humor.

@Rinel They didn't want to put me on regular ADD meds, because I am on an anxiety med. Ask about Wellbutrin? (I am on the generic version) It's not a perfect fix, but it has helped some.

I've been wanting to see it - re: Nicholas Hoult, who looks absolutely adorable and hilarious in the trailers.

But I don't have Hulu. Boo.

One of us, one of us...

@moth I can't upvote this, but I feel for you.

Logan Williams, played young Barry on the Flash - 16, just shy of 17 - dead from fentanyl overdose

SO pretty! That's such a neat idea.

Miracles happen. I just got a conference call that tells me I'm going back to my actual job, effective immediately. The big boss said "We need you to be happy, because we like the work you've been doing, and we want you there when the office reopens."

The immense change in how I was feeling is mind blowing.

So I am being told to do this job that is the opposite of the job you interviewed and were hired for, while supplying the equipment we sent other people yourself, or get let go. Get fired because you don't want to do this job that cranks your anxiety on high.

I've burst into honest to gods sobs several times already today - before noon. My staffing agency guy says to ask for leave without pay - but then I have no income, and I sure as fuck can't afford THAT.

So the anxiety on high ping feels like the start of a sugar crash. This has caused an issue. (I ignore it, I crash. I don't ignore it, I make the worry/anxiety worse, cycle on and on.)

After a serious crash yesterday, I've had to seriously consider if I can do this job they want to shove me into. Truth is, I don't think I can. What I could normally handle as a job, and unwind with the drive home - it's not the same, and I don't think it's possible.

I've had enough of being told to 'hang in there' and other such things from my supervisor. It's become clear he's not actually trying to do anything in my interest. Eff this shit.

@Groth Well, since the company isn't my actual employer, it only gets more complicated.

But my anxiety's already getting super bad, and that's not good (it messes with my sugars)

I am not sure what to do. I know if I let them shove me into this role, I will be miserable and my mental health will suffer greatly. But what I don't know, is if I refuse to take this role that is not my job, and they lay me off, etc, if I can qualify for unemployment.

I feel frustrated and helpless and... yeah.