Posts made by Macha

@TNP Accusations seem to be enough these days. Even with proof otherwise.

@Cobalt And yet you are basically slut shaming me, calling me a creeper and worse, for a log that didn't have any TS in it.

I have provided proof, you've gotten more yourself, I've been told, and yet, you can't just say "Sorry, I got given bad intel, and because it was a sensitive topic for me, I reacted from the gut?"

There was consent for the scene. You didn't even think to ask me anything. You just banned me, and dragged this out. I would have been happy to show you the pages, where we checked in with each other, making sure things were still okay.

I never tried to get your database. There were people wanting to continue the feel of the game, about a half dozen of us, in a discord group discussing it.

And despite EVERYTHING? If that scene did trigger you and upset you, I'm sorry for that. I would never want to have that happen to someone, even if when it was written, it wasn't meant for anyone but the two writing it.

@Cobalt Actually, Tamara asked for the game, without my prompting, as a group of us were considering opening a sort of sequel. Later, I did, since she had already been speaking to you about such matters, ask her to ask about wiki pages, which I was told would not hold any sort of IP/identifiable information. That was all stuff discussed pre-ban, thank you.

I never asked for the actual database, since you stated why you did not want to hand over the game whole cloth, etc.

It was suggested to ask for backups of the wiki pages.
— 03/05/2023 11:33 PM
[11:34 PM]
"And yeah, if people wanted to roll their characters in, that'd be fun. But you'd probably want clear support from Feli for that, and I'd ask her for the wiki pages if I were you. There's a basic backup of that that Ares generates, and it should include lots of what you would need."

If you had asked me at all, I could have shown you the pages where we each said "If something isn't okay with you, I'll edit it." (paraphrasing) from the night that scene started. I would have been more than happy to.

@Bessarion I am not even talking about your Zombie game, as I have no idea if Isaac is playing there. As for the player I reached out to 'telling me in no uncertain terms'? The other day.. Tuesday or Wednesday?, was the only time I had actually gotten a response while logged in, from said person in question.

Again, I had no idea you had banned me, there wasn't a post, I would have no way of knowing. As for the VPN, I already explained that, as well.

I have no idea what DARVO even stands for, but you go on and do you.

Again, I said I was non-fussed, because I have decided to use some of this time working on some other things that I can sink more time into without the ...well, this bullshit. I had already been there, before the ban/accusation (on my old, sadly busted up laptop, so no VPN), and had already decided it was not for me.

As for the 'homophobic shit'. As someone who is part of that group, I have seen is used fairly often by those of the LGBTQ+ community. Including on the Pack wiki page, for a business open to all identities and sexualities.

However, I shall refrain from using it, in the future, and apologize if anyone was bothered by it. I could edit it, but, it's quoted, and then I'd get dragged for editing, etc.

While @kk may be unsure, having read the suspect's poses and such, I am not. I am 99.5% sure that Isaac is the same player. It's starting to make me feel dirty, finding out all the things he's done/is doing.

While I am not fussed about being pre-banned from a game based on Cobalt's accusations, it does somewhat bother me that this player is allowed to be around, doing.. gods know what.

Knowing he is using being part of the alphabet mafia, and then Autism, ADHD, and other mental health issues as an excuse for his behavior is agitating.

Oh man, that's nuts. I keep meaning to post about folks, but.. yeah. RL is a whirl.

Oh, the hilarity of it all. From the thread linked above, concerning Ruiz/Isaac/now Elijah on Harvest Moon:

"Yes. But often times I find people are willing to excuse away behavior with a "yeah that was a crap thing to do but that other person was so fucking annoying/a tramp/was a dick to me, I am glad they're gone too." - Mietze

"I find that this isn't always coincidental. That is: the sorts of players that may run afoul of others for having bad IC/OOC boundaries, who may garner a bit of bad reputation for themselves not always behaving the best, are actually really good targets for creepers, harassers, and manipulators. Both because a history of thin IC/OOC boundaries means they are more easily manipulated, and bad reputation means they are less likely to be listened to." - Roz.

I have also received word that Cobalt reviewed some pages (I was told pages were deleted after someone was banned, but what do I know) and Isaac-player and I fought, because I was accusing him of ... harem building and hiding it. THE SAME THING she had been warned about him for, by other players like Coin and Hexe.

Well gee, Wally...

I DO want to give Cobalt the credit due, for apologizing to Bailey's player for banning him, after reviewing some logs and realizing he did not deserve it.

@hobos It was Ares, but no, it wasn't OOC in the logs, it was pages between us. Which, I have been told, have been wiped out with me being banned.

@hobos If Cobalt had spoken to me, I could have pulled up the pages from the time of the scene, where he and I had checked with each other multiple times to make sure everything was cool with the other, and offering to edit things if the other wanted, etc. Everything in that scene was discussed/consensual.

That scene was not at all cathartic to me, btw. Years of therapy are the only reason I can even confess publicly it happened without getting panicked or crying.

@Bessarion To the best of my recollection, I paged one person post Pack ban (and the then ban from 6, I would gather?) , and attempted to explain what happened and apologize. The person had given me their character's name on 6ix, upon word the Pack was closing. I made some light hearted chat commentary, yes, because I always think it's a bit odd when a guest does not respond to a warm welcome.

But there was one person I paged to talk to, and apologize, etc. They told me they believed Cobalt, I pointed out I still held out the chance Cobalt was reacting to edited logs(That is truly what I want to believe, in fact, because apparently you can edit Ares logs easier than I thought. No one could blame her, if things were edited). I said I had wanted to say sorry, I had, and wished them a good Pi day. I left.

@Bessarion I came, and paged a single person, to apologize for not being able to carry out agreed upon plots, finish out conversations being had OOCly etc. I did not get a response before today.

All were from the work laptop, as mine was recently 'fixed' only to realize it needs more fixing.

Not trying to be 'clever'. I stated that I did not know previously of a ban, and said I would not be back. That's it. No intention of darkening your virtual doorstep again.

@Ghost In response to triggers -THIS IS A WARNING - SA Triggers - this has been very hard for me. Because when I was young and stupid, I was at my then boyfriend's house, for a party. He got me to take hits from his.. apparatus. I was not (Still am not) a regular partaker in THC.

I was given some shots, it was a party. He asked someone else to take me home. Yes. He assaulted me, because I had become completely out of sorts. I will not go into further details. No one needs to know that shit. So yeah. I would never, ever, RP that sort of thing out.

@Hella I am sure it must be painful to think about and share, and I appreciate the empathy. I long ago gave up on a large chunk of those people ever giving me a fair shot. (Hence why I would never, ever, try to play on Arx)

The thing that does bother me, is I want to believe Cobalt was acting out of good intent, to bad intel. But she's also apparently gotten me banned from places? Places I never played on, apped at, etc?

@Bessarion A - I didn't know I was banned, for one, especially after the 'leave drama where it came from' forum post. Yes, I checked to see if I was banned on the forum posts. I would never have logged in, if there had been mention.

B- work laptop, also has an auto-login to the VPN on start up. Don't worry, I have zero intentions of coming back.

I would have told you in Private Message, but you told me not to reply, so I didn't.

@Ghost Nope. Cobalt never said anything to me at all.

@Cobalt I would like to point out, I said you may be acting off edited logs, and bad intel. I tried to give the benefit of the doubt, on that.

Because, as always - as often as it burns me and gets me hurt, I want to believe in the good in people.

@Ghost I can not speak to anyone else's actions or intent. I tried to be honest with both the player of Isaac and everyone else I was playing with. I went to Cobalt when I was concerned something may become an issue, but.. here we are.

Also, if it is being insinuated he was harem building (and she is apparently warning people about said harem builder, from what I've received second hand), why wasn't he banned, when someone had posted logs telling one girl he wasn't interested in dating and wanting to go for something with another, was suddenly banned for 'playing them both'?

@Ghost Emo boy.

@Ghost Wait. I have MINIONS? And no one TOLD ME? ... what do I do with those, again?

I mean, I have people I like. People I might even call friends. Are those the minions, or do I not get it?

I reported someone for breaking a request to not message me, and I am suddenly a contributor. -snort- But if I had done that to someone over there, dear heavens!

ETA: I don't own a PS5, and No one prefers Dark World to Ragnarok. No one that isn't some emo edgelord.

@simplications I don't know you, but I do know one thing - the 'long problematic history' from the other site's perspective? I wouldn't keep my mouth shut and be a good little background character ALL THE TIME, for a certain group.

Another little duo hated that my character/RP complicated their character getting what they wanted, so they went to staff about me.

In this case? I made mistakes, yes. I didn't just tell Cobalt who it was refusing to share. I let the 'no log sharing' go on way too long, before someone else pointed out it was a huge red flag.

WHY would I go over there, where there's an actual THREAD about me, with a lot of baseless BS? I don't go there, I don't have an account there. I don't even think they would allow me to have an account there, to be perfectly frank. WHY would I go to a party with people who would throw drinks at me just for showing up?