Posts made by Macha

@Admiral My father was abusive and I was mostly separated for a handful of years. I thought with dad and I mending bridges, I'd be part of the family again. I was wrong, other than a brief time after his death. This just comes with the stress of starting a new job, and being in full on panic because I move next weekend and money is beyond tight. So it hits harder to be excluded - and on my birthday.

I'm the odd one out in my family, yet again. I don't know what to do, and it just leaves me miserable.

Walmart pick up has saved me a lot of food waste for less impulse buys. I still waste more food than I would like. But without it, if I need to go to the other stores for things? I need to psyche myself up AND rest after.
I can not sit in my work chair without leaning back which lets me swing my feet (it's a chair for a tall person, and I am so very much not one).
The so bored it hurts has happened more than I care to.
I am either multi-tasking master or single task Sally. I can not control that switch.

@Auspice I am with you for the legalization. We can get it medicinally in my state, but it's a pain in the ass. But as synthetic opioids don't work for me at all, there's not much I can do for pain other than OTC crap...or smoke week. I use a tincture of CBD, and that helps.

@Auspice My doctors want me to exercise more, but won't give me anything for the pain to help me do it (Fibro sucks!)

@Auspice Unfortunately I know this well - the fear, the frustration, all of it. My hips are problematic, along with my spine because of an autoimmune. My knees are also messed because I got hit by a car as a kid.

So today was my appointment to get meds. ...until it was cancelled, and now I have to wait until 7/17. I'm just so annoyed.

I started a new job this week. We were talking about high school/early boyfriends that ended up coming out as gay later. A woman in my class said "I mean, be gay if you want to but if I found out a man I slept with had slept with men, I'd call the cops! That's attempted murder, they have hiv!" (among some other comments)-- I about lost my fucking mind. I stared at her in complete shock for at least 2 minutes.

I have no idea if I can report that to someone in a supervisory capacity. There are a good number of LGBTQA+ people who work at this company. Most of them are out and proud, and while I'm bisexual and have face bi-erasure before, I think someone saying things like that could really upset others.

@Rucket I think it depends on what you want to play?

@Arkandel So, as one of those Tier 1 types, who ended up being responsible for running herd on coders, developers, etc etc - Women know what they're walking into, generally. Make sure there's no completely sexist jokes, sexual harassment, talking about tits or sex, and you should be okay.

(Yes, all of those things have happened to me in my forays into male dominated fields)

@moth I love that face. He's currently curled up and snoring on me. But his chicken dinner can wait.

Today is the 6th Anniversary of the day this adorable boy chose me.

@Wretched I finally have an appointment to look at medicine options, so I may be able to finally be on something for anxiety or ADHD. I don't really want anything for depression, since it can make you less receptive to your own brains joy juice, but the other two possibilities super excite me .

I have finally been offered to be evaluated for medications. So I am hoping to get something to help me with my ADD.

I am learning to say fuck you to anyone who wants to give me shit or side-eye for going to therapy. so... fuck those people. I think a lot of people could feel better if they had time to just unload about whatever now and then.

Along with this - There seems to be a disconnect on what power levels are allowed in apped characters, perhaps Staff need to have more discussion and agreement between them? It really does seem to vary wildly depending on which staffer is in charge of an app.

I'm sorry. I know how that can be, when you live all alone, and I know how much help a dog can be to keep those at bay. Don't hesitate to reach out to those that care. Distraction can help you get through.

Eww. No, married friend, I will not come hang out with you and your son because your wife is away. That's just gross and skeevy.

Justin Ponsor (it's a stretch, but..) Colorist for Marvel comics for the last 15 years - Death of Wolverine, Avengers, Civil War II, and tons more.

I want to try the impossible burger, just because I'm not a huge red meat eater (it can be painful if I don't watch it). I eat a lot of chicken and turkey, love my carbs a little too much, and need a new steamer so I can up my veggie consumption.