@apos said in What is your turning point?:
@packrat said in What is your turning point?:
Weirdly I have a kind of hard mental cut off for scheduling RP, outside of specific events. If somebody say asks if I will be free 7pm on Tuesday to RP?
The internal response is almost immediately a kind of mental FUCK NO! NEVER!
Even if I was originally probably planning to be around and RPing at that time.
I dunno why, but as soon as RP is hard scheduled with a date and time I just don't enjoy it. It carries a feeling of obligation, and it's no longer fun. I'll do it for people because some people can't RP otherwise and need me to help move their stories along, but I just think of it as work. I'm glad they enjoy it, but I often am so dialed out that when people talk up about how they loved the RP I have no idea what they are talking about since I don't remember the scene at all. It was a job that was taken care of.
This really bums me out, because if I never scheduled things there would just be people I'd never RP with. Or maybe RP with after weeks or months of us pinging back and forth with "Hey you free?" Which just leaves me feeling anxious for weeks.