@thenomain Imagine the day we have one that's two small cylinders, one holding a pen, the other with a series of numbers and a speaker and microphone, that you pull apart to have a flexible screen in the middle.
It will happen, and we'll all talk about what a stunning new innovation The <Corp> Scroll is.
@tanvia You are not alone on that one.
Worst part: the person I was playing with said it was the best writing they'd ever seen me do and was gushing about it for days.
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Ever since, I've felt like a loser for not being able to write so well as I apparently write when I'm asleep.
Oh my gods. I am so sorry to hear this. I had no idea he was ill, so this is such a shock. Please send my condolences to his near and dear. This is beyond tragic.
@paris I am hoping so. I know I will certainly be doing my best to be vigilant in that regard.
@tempest To add to what Thenomain said, I treated a lot of people badly because of those things.
It was stupid and wrong, I should have known better and I didn't, and I did harm to people in the process. None of that is in any way OK.
So it wasn't just hearing shit. Everybody hears shit, and while that itself is not OK when people start this up, it was acting on what I heard in the ways I did that is magnitudes worse.
@peasoupling I can see this being a huge factor, yeah. I'm sure it has to be better cooked. The raw chopped kind in that salad -- which was otherwise a 'sweet' salad with cranberries and walnuts and some kind of sweet dressing and other weirdness -- made it taste like someone had literally sprinkled wet dirt into a defenseless fruit cup.
@mietze Have you ever seen a cat do that 'bleah bleah bleah no please no bleah bleah bleah' tongue trick to try to get food out of their mouths?
That was me when someone insisted I try their 'super awesome kale salad that's so totally different, honest! (ETA: I mean literally I did the cat thing reflexively. I felt so bad. But it was at a Cracker Barrel, so. Not as guilty as I may have.)
I actually love broccoli rabe and can deal with dandelion greens (which tend toward super bitter for anyone not familiar), but whatever kind of kale they put in that salad magically turned me into a three year old who would not under any circumstances let that spoon-plane come in for a landing.
@admiral I don't disagree with you at all about this.
I really don't want to know these kinds of things about the people I play with -- barring someone giving me a heads-up re: 'that person is a well-known creeper, be careful'.
I am especially not ever wanting to know about someone's RL dramas or traumas unless a friend needs me for a sounding board, about their own issue. I feel quite uncomfortable when hearing these things about third parties, and I do have massive regrets re: not telling anyone who has disclosed these kinds of things to me to stop. I should have, it was wrong of me to not do that, and I'm preparing a 'please stop right there, this is not my business and I don't want to hear this' monologue or macro or something in case it should ever come up again.
@admiral said in I owe a lot of people some apologies.:
I love being the center of attention.
...by all means, man. You are more than welcome to the center stage; I could use the night to breathe for a few seconds before the next round of private discussions and cringing into my skin as people use this thread for, uh, not what I intended it to be.
By which I mean: if this means I can take tonight 'off' to get completely shit-faced on vodka and pass out/insomnia-slog through something binge-watchable and resume discussions in the morning as calmly as I can manage?
@packrat That photo is AMAZING.
I d'awwed and giggled so hard the flurf on the chair made a sad little 'but what about meeeeeeeeee' squeak noise that I was cooing over another person's cat. 
I have yet to mav a TS pose to anyone. I have been in the hobby since... 1996? Yeah.
It does not matter that I could count the number of times I've TSed even to an ftb point over the past 2 years on the fingers of one hand and still have the thumb left over, this is a horror long overdue and the Sword of Damocles feel is real, y'all.
I live in terror of the shit fate is storing up for me on this front. Whenever that bomb drops, it might level Tokyo Tower. 
@misadventure I think it's best to let Arkandel and Ganymede comment on that, and frankly that's all I am going to say about it.
@rucket I don't think you and I are going to see eye to eye, so I'm going to disengage. This thread was created for what is stated in the first two posts, the end. That's not 'something to take to Arkandel'.
@gangofdolls This. This many times over. The people in question who have contacted me about it, I've talked to. Those who asked for evidence/logs/screenshots were given them.
If they wish to share those things with Ganymede and Arkandel, that is up to them. If they want to post those things to the forum, that is up to them. It is their personal information and their lives, and thus it is not mine to share with the general public.
I don't care what aspersions or suspicions people sling at me for not posting those things in public view, and not just because doing that would actually be a violation of the forum rules unto itself, but because that people would even ask for that sort of thing is just... kinda picking my jaw off the floor that anyone feels entitled to demand everything be placed on public view when that 'everything' is someone else's personal life information, especially for any sort of forum matter. If that's what someone requires for me to 'justify myself' to them, I am happy for them to consider me whatever breed of villain they wish in perpetuity.
@rucket If you want to call me a liar for not being willing to publicly post screenshots of the private, real life business that was shared with me, I invite you to call me a liar until my dying day, because there is not a snowball's chance in hell I'm going to violate the privacy of third parties as regards details of their real lives in order to satisfy you or any other member of the peanut gallery.
@bored FWIW, while I don't agree with some actions Ark has taken in this case, I think it's fair to say he's not taking the action he's taking to protect a buddy. He has very strong feelings on fairness to the accused, which is in itself a laudable thing -- I think the assessment here is right, though, on the whole, otherwise.
I have not asked him to ban her or remove her bit, which he's mentioned himself.
I cannot say I am comfortable with her having access to player IPs on the forum, knowing how often and widely she is staff and thus has access to IPs on games as well. I am really trying to not comment on this aspect of the discussion, but this in particular has me notably uneasy.
I'm pretty sure that if a poll went up asking how comfortable other posters are with that notion, this would not be a tiny minority opinion. (Not suggesting that be done, either, but my inner Miss Cleo has a hunch here. Or I could be completely full of shit delusional on this front. Either is entirely possible.)
Y'all, I have Tyche on block, so I'm not seeing anything he posts. I trust Ark and Gany to handle whatever arises if he is trolling here.
I think it probably goes without saying that if I felt any obligation to apologize to him for anything on these grounds, he wouldn't be still blocked.
(Hey, at least I did something right this thread. )
Just feel the need to say: I did not create this thread as a 'bash Auspice' thread, or a 'debate the merits of Auspice being a mod here' thread.
I'm sure some folks will find that hard to believe, but it is the truth.
I left her name off it when it was originally created for a reason.
Odds are high no one would have a clue who it was if she hadn't managed to rile me up again until I grarred my head off in a different thread like a hair-triggered fool; snapping and yelling wasn't exactly some grand plan, no matter how bloody Sicilian I am. Like bored, I do not have some grand and elaborate scheme to watch unfold whilst I steeple my fingers, twirl my OMG SHE'S SO SICILIAN LIKE REALLY YOWZA mustache, pet my long-haired cat, and cackle maniacally.
So, while I do have a long-haired cat and I do sometimes cackle maniacally, I wax the mustache into oblivion and do not have a plan here beyond 'fess up, own my shit, take whatever lumps for it people feel are appropriate, and try to do better going forward'.
@kanye-qwest I think our mean streaks have clashed way more than they ever should have. I remember way back when, when we got along fine and just joked around about shit -- which was honestly fun. I really am sorry I let stupid nonsense fuck that up, my own stupid shit and whatever weird whisperings were afoot, and I do really mean that.
