This is a fair and measured assessment. I will own this as many times as it takes for people to think, "Hmm, that Thenomain, he seems to be owning this," but your summary is perhaps the most fair, certainly the one that gives space for discussion. I appreciate your skill.
My response to staff's private lecture was that I understand and would try, but I didn't appreciate them giving me the same lecture twice. I think that if you're asking for consideration and understanding that you also be able to give it. I will be far from the last person they have to deal with who freaks out, though I'd be surprised if they have to deal with someone who does so as much.
Also note that as some people were telling me to take a breather, others were dogpiling. I'm still owning that I should have the ability to chill the fuck out, but it goes both ways. It's too late now, but it ties strongly back into what's wrong with discussions on Soapbox in general, and gives a more even view of what was going on the channel.