Send our hopes along with those scans that it is not cancer; and I'm not much of a sappy person but I feel legitimately crap that you're hurting over something you can only experience from the sidelines, much as I'm sure you want to do something.
Thank you for the positivity.
To be frank, I'm not sure if hurt is the right word for it. It's exhausting. It's probably not quite the same as the sexism and the racism, but living with the constant thought of "what will I tell the kids if she doesn't come home?" is something I could do without.
I get alternately tired and angry at times. I've been more irritable as of late. But things are getting better, professionally. It's really nice to get credit card records showing your adversary in a divorce case has been on a dating site since before the divorce was filed.