@surreality said in RL Anger:
As I mentioned to a friend yesterday morning: "I need coffee this morning like the debate tonight will need a laugh track. These are the only ways I think I may survive either."
Laugh track? It needed a sad trombone.
You should have used this as called for:
More a mope, but...
Didn't make it to the next stage of the interview process. 
Had really high hopes for that job, too.
Why wasn't Hermione Granger the star of the Harry Potter series?
@Misadventure She was. The version we all read was written from the male perspective, but Hermione is the anti-Voldemort, and she shows up that way. Harry is just part of the ritual magic spell that gets rid of Moldy Voldy. Hermione is the only member of the three who has AGENCY.
The complications of when you had a really shitty parent, as time goes on. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer about a month ago. I felt nothing then and feel nothing now, which makes me a bitch. Or I do feel something--a little angry maybe that the biopsy results mean she gets targeted radiation no chemo and is expected to not have much of an impact long term on her health now that she's had a very minimal partial mastectomy. Meanwhile I have been to 3 funerals in the last 2 years all of friends with kids my kids' ages (the older ones anyway) who have died of cancer. I have cried more over the many friends I've driven to chemo appointments or hung out with to be someone nearby and doing housework on bad days. (I'm a woman of a certain age, so I would say that for the last 5 years I've had a constant stream of loved friends going through this.)
So pretty much this makes me an epic cold bitch. Especially when I'm more upset that I'm not upset, and even a little angry that she will likely remain in good health while other, fantastic moms I know are in the ground. But it is what it is. I wish I could be sad instead of...blank.
Supportive +1 rather than that's cool.
Because you pretty much described me, except add in my mom dyed her hair and tried to lie to everyone that she grew up with and family about how old she was at my grandfather's funeral, and sold all their stuff, and I told he to stop contacting me when my grandparents passed as I was being civil with them for her. The worst is my dad though because he keeps apologizing for her, she wasn't like that when they married and he feels bad she doesn't contact me. I just shrug it off and say if she really wanted to contact me she would. I really don't care. Last time we talked I said it wouldn't be until she got some professional help, and I'm am fine with it. It only bothers me because it bothers dad because his parents are getting older and he they talk every day and she's my mother. I completely get being blank about a parent.
I write. You know how it says all the people are made up and all that? I have a reoccurring nightmare that I get published, and there is a real bitch of a character, and mom sues me. Not because I said anything nasty about her character, but because she feels she should get profits from my book because the character is like her. She's that kind of person.
She also slept with a clipping from the newspaper of Prince Charles and had a major hate on for Diana, as if she took something away from mom.
And then Facebook has to go and tell me "Hey, remember that friend you had who died of cancer years ago? It's her birthday today! Wish her a happy birthday!" Thanks for reminding me, Facebook, of how old she would be, if she were still here. I really needed that!
Double post but seriously? A frost warning? It's not even October!
Can't +1 that, Insomnia. Just having to note... yeah. Facebook ghosts.
I tell myself it'd be easier if I removed them from my friend list, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
Yeah. I'm just glad that it hasn't been touched since then. Memorials where people post to the person or AS the person? Can't handle that,
People are still posting to my mom's Facebook, more than a year after she died. 'I miss you!' and stuff. It really, really bothers me, and idk why, really. It's been turned into a memorial page or whatever FB does so I don't like, get notifications. I have to go look. And I do, and then it upsets me.
Mostly I'm just an idiot.
@Sunny Sorry, that's still really fresh. Maybe you'll come to appreciate it somewhat once the pain has mellowed, a bit. Sorry for your loss, I know how that goes.
Yeah. It's been a year and a few months, and I think the shock is really wearing off now. The whole grieving process is stupid and ridiculous and I hate it so much. I can't even talk to my dad right now because all he wants to do is say awful things about her (the last 5 years or so of her life she turned into a demon between her fear of death and the medication she was on, plus dementia, I think) and I know that's part of HIS process, but I just can't cope. Stupid.
@mietze It's okay to be human. What you're feeling is not bad or wrong. I mean, I know you know it, but I'm in your corner, lady. You aren't wrong. You aren't bad. It's not evil to feel that way. It isn't fucking fair, and it would be REALLY NICE if the universe would fucking take fairness into consideration. Stupid. I hate that, too.
I have too much shit to do. Work. School. Planning for that trip. Just generally being awesome.
I do not have the time (nor want, obvs) to be in the hospital for 2-3 days for a fucking bowel obstruction.
Now I just pray that it is only 2-3 days and I don't need surgery.
Saying the quiet parts out loud since 1996.
@Sunny - I'm in the same sort of spot, and I find it creepy as all fuck, too. It just feels like some really creepy combination of denial and showboating that I really don't need on my coping plate right now.
Yes. Exactly. That's precisely it. Fucking ugh.
@Auspice Sounds like a real... pain in the arse.
Me: "Is this for anesthesia?"
Patient: "No, this is for Rob."
Me: "...."
Vorpal is actually Satan made MU*nifest
@Vorpal In fairness, I can think of two Robs I'd have to be under anesthesia to ever willingly encounter again.
A friend of mine died over a year ago. Her parents (?) still log in as her occasionally and "like" things on Facebook. This needs to fucking stop.
A friend of mine died over a year ago. Her parents (?) still log in as her occasionally and "like" things on Facebook. This needs to fucking stop.
Seriously, block that page. Now. Seeing this constantly can be incredibly damaging. Whoever's doing it is a dick.
@surreality said in RL Anger:
As I mentioned to a friend yesterday morning: "I need coffee this morning like the debate tonight will need a laugh track. These are the only ways I think I may survive either."
Laugh track? It needed a sad trombone.
You should have used this as called for:
