@Luna said:
@Sunny Hang in there. I'm so sorry and this is super fucking shitty. And I know breathing meds are CRAZY expensive. I hope things get better soon! Kick ass and take names!
Thankfully the 'keeping me alive' medication is out of pocket affordable. The big one right at the moment is that I can't afford any of my pain management. We were going to be trying this super cool local anesthetic patch thing for my foot that meant I would not have to consume ANY sort of narcotics at all. Well, we will still be trying it, once things get squared away. But the pain patches? Yeaaaaah, good luck with that. I can't take over the counter medication for any of it, either. It's all apparently too much of a risk for me except Tylenol, which I pretty much have to OD on to get any relief from it.
@Sunny They gave me so much Meloxicam one time that I started puking blood. Pain meds around here are a big no no. It didn't help anyway. Is the patch lidocaine? Because they came out with a generic of that. It works pretty good for some things. Narcos don't work super well on me anyhow, but I swear they would rather shut down people's livers than give those.
Be sure to check out good rx (I think it's goodrx.com I use the app) and Costco/Sams club. You don't need a membership. I'm sure you know but I'd rather over share than under share.
Fun? What is this fun thou speakest of?
Online retail outlets for common brick and mortar stores that refuse to allow you to sort search results on the site by 'Available in my fucking store', so you can at least shop, find and go pick up within the same hour.
Property managers who randomly start charging me for extra parking stalls when I don't own a car, much less many cars that would require multiple stalls,
Then let me know 4 months later with a letter telling me I'm in arrears.
Then tell me I requested it, but can't produce documentation.
Then won't stop doing it.
FFS.
@Luna said:
@Sunny They gave me so much Meloxicam one time that I started puking blood. Pain meds around here are a big no no. It didn't help anyway. Is the patch lidocaine? Because they came out with a generic of that. It works pretty good for some things. Narcos don't work super well on me anyhow, but I swear they would rather shut down people's livers than give those.
Be sure to check out good rx (I think it's goodrx.com I use the app) and Costco/Sams club. You don't need a membership. I'm sure you know but I'd rather over share than under share.
Yeah, the new one is lidocaine, yes. The generic version is still a couple of hundred dollars, unfortunately. Which is much more affordable than Butrans and also non-narcotic, but...well, hopefully soon. 
RL Peeve: Getting bitched at in back to back to back conversations with different people in a variety of mediums.
Don't do things that make people bitch you out?
New process implementation should NOT make my managers think I'm planning to take their puppies out into the street to shoot them, ffs. The whole world isn't ending because I said I was going to go in and clean up the electronic files from a year ago that you never looked at again and don't plan to ever use!
Stop packrat'ing it up, y'all. Just stop.
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Chronic Pain. I have diabetic neuropathy in my feet and legs, which alternates between 'numb' and 'your feet are being held in a fire'. I'm allergic to Gabapentin, to make things more fun,
And the carpal tunnel also hurts. And the joints in my hands and feet. Ow.
The philosophy that gets me through the day goes like this: "When you feel like work is overwhelming you just remember: You are going to die."
Commonly is it shortened simply to "You are going to die."
And that gets me through the day because it's a freakin relief.
A bookkeeping error on someone else's part costing me 1/4-1/5 of my projected annual income, which is more than enough to strangle my new business in its cradle.
That income having been already accounted for in expenses.
Some of those expenditures having been already made, on tools for production.
Having the tools to make the product, but no money left for the materials required, and debt from the tools on top that needs to be paid back.
Having a plan to get through it, but it requires more money and more physical effort than my body can actually take, and knowing this will cause lasting damage. Not really having a choice about it anyway.
The stress from the cavalcade of stupid above causing the old 'can't keep food down any more' stomach condition to return in full force, with an extra dose of pain.
Realizing that can't slow things down that need to get done, and that I'm the only one that will do them, even if I'm not the only one who can.
Knowing this is going to be the status quo for the next few months at least, because the business just became a totally different business and rebuilding is a thing.
All of that seriously fucking sucks, but it is not the peeve. That's just the shit that is.
The peeve: all of this shit going down between ordering 5000 business cards, and those business cards actually showing up.
Oh fucking well.
@surreality A bookkeeper can make or break a business in really subtle ways. Next time you go to hire one, let me know. There are some really nice bookkeeping tests. I'm very sorry this happened to you. So very sorry. I know you can get through it!
What Luna said, except I don't know anything helpful. I'm sorry; that all sucks so, so much. 
It sucks, but I'm still here, and still way too stubborn to give up. Wasn't even my bookkeeper -- long story is long, it'd ultimately cause major issues for people who deserve this ass-fucking less than I do for their amazing levels of utter generous amazingness over the past few years to do more than sigh and suck it up as a mutually-damaging screwfest made of honest error. 
Pretty much nothing I could have done to avoid it, so all of the hell-chaos is under my (least) favorite heading of 'shit that was clearly meant to be for reasons I just can't fathom yet'.
So while I'm kinda a wreck, well, dammit, those were really amazing business cards, seriously, world, WTF. I call so much foul.
The injury I'm usually able to shoulder without ever letting on, it's the insult-level-irony on top that just feels like the universe is in super-mock-mode.
I'm wondering if it's considered tacky to keep the business cards when they're indicative of a completely different sort of business, and how much I actually care either way.
Being lonely. Complain about being lonely expecting replies of 'oh I totally understand :(' and instead get invitations to hang out or go out. Try to explain its not that kind of lonely. No one gets it, proceed to feel stupid and lonely.
At risk of mockery.. I understand all too well. >.>
Stupid, inconsiderate morons in supermarkets who leave their cart in the middle of the aisle as they browse the shelves or talk to a second moron whose cart is also in the middle of the aisle.
People who stand in the grocery freezer aisle two-abreast, BESIDE their carts, filling the entire aisle as they look through the amazing breadth of offerings of the grocer's whimsical plethora.
Then when they don't even acknowledge you standing there, waiting to get by, patiently.
Then when they don't even acknowledge you clearing your throat.
They certainly acknowledge when you crash through their carts, shoving them out of the way. 
Being lonely. Complain about being lonely expecting replies of 'oh I totally understand :(' and instead get invitations to hang out or go out. Try to explain its not that kind of lonely. No one gets it, proceed to feel stupid and lonely.
