Best posts made by Cobalt

EDIT:

CURRENT:

• Andrina @ Arx

I'm going to shamelessly copy ES.

First staff bits since it'll be slightly less messy:

• Cobalt@Darkwater
• Atlantis/Quneitra@The Reach
• Sanguine@Haunted Memories
• GM Blues/Nekhbet@City by the Bay
• Inglewood/Casablanca/Bellflower@Lamush (nnggggh)
• Absolut@St. Petersburg
• Amaranth@Briefly on Gangrel's nWoD game, can't remember the name now.
• Melpomene@Windy City
• Melpomene/Something Else@Crimson Dawn
• Obsequy@Blood & Citrus
• Lapis Lazuli@Wine Dark Sea (?? I think it was this one)
• Cobalt@City of Fog and Blood
• Roulette@Reno
• Pluckytart@WildCard
• Apple@Eldritch
• Cobaltasaurus@FC
• Obsequy@DescentMUX
• Cobalt@Angel's Legacy

Player Characters:

• LAMush: December, Dara, Celeste, Carmin, Others.
• City by the Bay: Jolene, Azura, Others.
• Anomaly TrekMUX: Carvon, Devona, Beatrix.
• Windy City: Gabe, Ivy, Parvani, Mourning, Briony, Others.
• Northern Vampire Mysteries: Miriam
• The Great Game: Lily (Whiteflower / Blanchefleur)
• Haunted Memories: Alicia, Peta, Cytosine (Calla Lily), Kera, Others.
• St Petersburg: Nika, Liliya, Toma, Marya.
• Star Trek: Gamma One: Maiah, Girah, Voss, Ilya, Imele, Martin, maybe others.
• The Reach: Annabeth (Autumn) Dunlin, Feline, Gussie, December, Kotu, so many others...
• City of Fog and Blood: Faye, Penny, Mina.
• Reno: Estelle, Harper, Malin, Giosetta.
• City of Hope: Maya.
• Let The End Times Roll: Rose, Lily.
• Firan: Daliana, Cori (Jan 2014 - March 2014)
• Saturnine Dreams: Dancing Amber Lights (Amber.
• Hollow (@gattaca's changeling game): I don't remember!
• Shangrila: Isadara (I was this for like three or four years, before I nuked out, if there's a new one it isn't me)
• Darkwater v1: Gwen, a bunch of others.
• Darkwater: the Magening: Pandora.
• Darkwater GMC Changeling: Amber
• Amber OTT @Sunny ran: Emmietta
• Kushiel's Debut: Mylene, Emilie, Miella, Ambroise.
• Fallcoast: Leah, Maris, Belle, Adelet, Nikki, Kanta, Lav.
• Eldritch: Lily
• Descent Mux: Athena, Saskia
• Angel's Legacy: Ariadne
• Fallen World: Romance
• Reno 2.0: Jordanne
• Arx: Mirari (II), Clover (I), Saya, Ainsley.
• Fifth Kingdom: Seamair
• Elua's Percept: Mylene
• Fate's Harvest: Lien
• Calaveras: Briony & Ianthe
• Valorous Dominion: Tizania
• Galaxy & Maia & Vasilja @ Euphoria
• Bree @ Moon River
• Venetia @ Gray Harbor

I may have forgotten some, but I don't really remember. :<

My older sister, who already has a child, has been fighting for years to get a hysterectomy because of Dysmenorrhea. She has a legitimate medical condition where her uterus makes her life living hell and now in her forties a doctor finally took it out.

It's fucking stupid.

@carex To be honest, I think it's a really like ... real issue? Think about it: If you were in a relationship with someone RL and all they wanted was to have sex and never leave the house, or all they wanted was to have sex with you but kept all of their friends, their job, etc separate would you be with that person?

I don't think there's anything with wrong ICly playing out a conversation of "all you want is my dick, this isn't a satisfying relationship for me" and then you can keep it all in-character if you don't want to talk to them OOC.

On the flipside you can just say: Hey, I'd like to do something other than TS.

AAAAAAHHHHH!

Cant wait to put them in this:

@arkandel It also comes across to me like punishing the victim. @Carex's story made it seem like the chick had no idea it was going to happen and certainly didn't consent to it. So pulling them both in and demanding what the hell is going on, and then telling them they'll be banned for it ... is punishing the victim? I would have just dealt with the guy.

@wizz said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

Could we maybe tone it down just a touch with the shitty apartment shaming? I know that the tub's not super appealing but like, grimy apartments are a reality a lot of us poors just gotta suck it up and deal with, and it's embarrassing enough.

ETA: Just to be super clear, I did mean shitty apartment shaming, not that the shaming itself is inherently shitty. Don't want anyone to read that as waaaay more hostile than I intended.

Yeah, I didn't intend to make anyone feel bad. As @Ganymede, I too have lived in places like this. When I was in high school I lived in a place that didn't even have its own bathroom and I had to go out of the apartment to a shared shower with neighbors.

Because of my personal trauma I cannot handle living in a place where the tub looks damaged, or rusty, etc. When I said I need to be able to feel clean, I mean it.

There's no shame in having to live in an older, and not pristine place, it's a reality of life.

And, yes, @GreenFlashlight, when I get onto my PC later tonight. I'll happily share some photos I took. I'm incredibly happy with the place. It's not as "fancy" as the place I currently live (no community pool, etc), but power, water, sewer, and garbage is all included.

@Cupcake "False claim to queerness" -- I feel this on a visceral level. Given that I consider myself demi/pan-- in that I have the potential to be interested in anyone --but I typically have fallen into long term relationships with men.

I married a man, I dated another man for five years after my marriage. There are women I would have been with if the timing and opportunity were right...

It just never is. And so I feel like a pretender saying I'm a member of the LBGTQ+ community when I have mostly been in monogamous hetero relationships.

I am a MONSTER who would not give the puppy any of my cookie-brownie no matter how many sad stares and cute little tail wags I gave her. She gave up and went behind popi's recliner and pouted, refusing to come out even for him.

I don't think @Quinn was being literal about the ball scratch thing, my dudes. I think it was an easy example of why it's difficult for her to play male characters and why she doesn't. Saying "well just don't pose ball scratching" and then "well just play a character who happens to be male/female/nonbinary/a lamp and not a character who is male/female/nonbinary/a lamp" is a little bit dismissive of her perspective...

But it could also be damaging to the portrayal of those types of characters. Especially if you take away the gender part and instead insert race/ethnicity or sexuality. If you are a white person playing a POC on a game and you don't give any thought to who that person's background has effected them you might find yourself walking straight into stereotypes.

Not sure why I'm posting this, perhaps one last cry for attention. I finally understand that in the grand schema of this hobby I don't matter. I am a blip on the radar, a tiny pebble in the ocean. As interchangeable and replaceable as a Lego piece.

Achievements and collaborations I'm proud of go forgotten, mistakes and people who despised me a thing of the past as well. I have given so much of my life to a hobby that, at this point, makes me feel insignificant and dehumanized.

Don't get me wrong, I genuinely care and love many of you. Members of this community have helped me many times when I have needed it. And I will always remember and appreciate that. But, it's gotten to the point where I am sure that is all I'll be remembered for-- the times I needed your help.

The games I have created, the ones I have collaborated on, the ones I have played on-- I don't matter. They don't matter. None of it. I'll be replaced as soon as someone wants my spot bad enough. Some other angsty flake. Part of me wants to scream, to rage, to demand to know why I don't matter enough. But that's pointless. This is a fact of reality. To the universe, to the world, to this hobby. No single matters. And I'm just a single person.

I've already been replaced. It's time to go.

So, I'm going the way of Thenomain, EmmahSue, Peverel, Brus, Bloodnut, R2, Ceredwyn, Whirlwind, PsyJane, Rasheem, and others of this community whose names I struggle to recall. Some I go less gracefully than. Others more so.

So long. Stay healthy, safe, and happy.

@Bad-at-Lurking Or I mean the little butt wiggle, the wild groping at your butt, and the final despair when you decide you'll just look like a pervert b/c your panties have rolled all the way down your butt and now are pooled at the crotch of your pants and must be fixed and there is literally no bathroom for a mile away so into your pants go your hands as you try to pull your underwear back up as fast as you can?

Happy Halloween! Zefrank helpfully gives you a guide to candy trading for the year.

(Don't give out apples, you jerks!)

@L-B-Heuschkel said in Euphoria - Feedback:

Most games -- in the MU* hobby and otherwise -- that I am in touch with report the same kind of slump and exhaustion. The same applies in real life -- hell, my neighbour who is usually all but anal retentive about his lawn has more or less let his roof collapse because with all the free time of quarantine, he gets nothing done at all.

It's not a matter of free time but of emotional exhaustion. I suspect that a lot of games and communities are going to need to accept that half or more of the customer base is flying at one quarter impulse until further notice.

Yeah, @Sunny really helped me here. Like I said, I can be patient until people have time. The game doesn't cost me much right now. And I have a handful of people who are around and enjoying themselves. So I'm going to enjoy running stuff with them, and if more people come along later? That'll be grand.

I really just needed to recalibrate my expectations.

We still like you.

7th Sea.

I would give my kingdom for a 7th Sea game. But would I make it myself?

... no.

Willow is turning 1 on the 13! I've got her spay appointment set up for next Monday. Here are some updated pictures, her being the runt and having husky in her meant she didn't get very big.

Bonus video:
https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/690226408668135477/967689339528179732/Snapchat-627920786.mp4

WARNING: This post as pretty explicit language.

@Auspice said in Tips on Güd TS:

So, if you're playing a female character and her partner gets her well-aroused beforehand? She's much less likely to feel pain, even if she's a virgin. It might be uncomfortable and strange still, but painful? Not so much.

Chiming in briefly here to say: Indeed, yes. The first time I had sex it didn't hurt. There was blood like woah, but no pain. Not even after. However, it did take several attempts before actual penetration happened. Sometimes that can take some work. It might not be a: "Pushes in and feels the barrier, and then pushes through it". It might be a "attempts to push in, and gets repelled and slides around all crazy." Just, you know, if you want authentic virginity-losing-rp.

@ThugHeaven said in Tips on Güd TS:

3. Read some erotica. I frickin' love Zane novels, they're my guilty pleasure. Seeing how the pros do it goes a long way.

I agree on the disclaimer. You also need to look at the subject material for erotica. I adore several of Cara McKenna's books. (After Hours, Hard Time, Lay It down)-- are good books. I feel like she writes pretty healthy relationships even when the sexual relationship border on kink (dom/sub or bdsm such as in 'Unbound'). On the flip side you have the 'Sweet <blah>' series by Maya Banks, where the female lead just wants "a man who will call the shots in all aspects of her life, not just in the bedroom". I try not to be judgey but it borders a little bit on the squeaky for me. At least, however, it isn't the horror show that is 50 Shades.

Here's my TIP: Communcation.

If it looks like the scene is heading toward TS take a few moments to find out the following:

1. Does your RP partner WANT to TS or do they want to FTB?
2. What level of detail are they comfortable with?
3. What /words/ are they comfortable with? Are they down with 'cock' and 'pussy'? Or would they prefer 'manhood' and 'womanhood'. OR would they prefer things be even less descriptive than that.
4. Is there anything they super don't want to have happen and would turn the scene from 'I'm having fun' to 'omg, get out as fast as possible'.
5. ANYTHING ELSE. Really. Talk to the person OOC.

Some of the most enjoyable TS I've ever had, has been with people that I was comfortable enough with on the OOC level to talk about the TS. Talk about what I enjoyed and didn't enjoy. What they did and didn't. And I'm frankly not talking about kinky things. But like language. Pose length.

I had one conversation with a person who was shocked that I'd used the word 'cunt', and while it surprised them they were cool with it continuing-- it'd just been a surprise because every other woman they knew hated the word. I, on the other hand, hated the word 'cunny'.

TL;DR / LESS explicit language:

1. The first time you have sex as a woman, it may take a couple of tries for actual penetration to happen.
2. Becareful what erotica you read.
3. Always communicate with whoever you're RPing/TSing with to make sure everyone is on the same level / comfortable.

@lordbelh said in Tips on Güd TS:

@Arkandel I have to admit I just hate the you, and slap that on to a TS scene and it will make me run for the hills.

Oh, my god, yes. This makes me all kinds of uncomfortable. Outside of TS it annoys me but doesn't really worry me too much. But inside of a TS scene if someone is using "you" in their poses it makes me all sorts of skeeved out.

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@Kanye-Qwest said in Tips on Güd TS:

@Ghost said in Tips on Güd TS:
I also get squicked out at any ooc chit chat like "Dang, this is hot :)".

This one is a yes and a no for me. Comments like "Wow, that was hot", haven't really bothered me. I'm a pretty open person though. I've never felt any shame about expressing whether I thought something was sexy or not. Nor have I ever felt it was wrong to get aroused by TS (Please note: I've also had this weird personal rule where I never actually got off on TS, as I felt that crossed a line). Opinions change and these days I don't TS because I'm not comfortable actively doing an activity with another person (who is not my boyfriend) whether its through roleplay or otherwise, whether its all IC or otherwise, that arouses me.

But in the past someone saying: "Damn, I liked that." or "Damn that was hot as hell." Never bothered me. The only time those things bothered me were when they pushed further. Like if they asked if I was aroused. Or further. Or if they randomly talked about me and sex, not the characters. Or if it came out of no where in regards to non-sex scenes.

Juerg for example. My mage basically told him he was a total shit head and she would never speak to him again. And I told him that I hoped he understood things were IC and not OOC. To which point he responded with "Oh, I wouldn't get made about that. I'm not that stupid. I'd never get to nail you again if I did."

I was just like ... "wtf."

So, uh, nother time? Don't talk to the person on the otherside of the screen as if they were the ones doing the things you wrote about!

@Kay @Flitcraft @Stabby If you want to know what the plan for the finale scene is I'd be plan to tell you, but I'd also understand if you don't!

I am glad @Flitcraft that it got you in touch with some wonderful folks and that it did help you at a time you needed it. You are definitely one of my favorite people to GM for, and while I'm not really wanting to run up >my own ship< again, if I ever start GM'ing for someone else's game I hope you'll come around.

@roz said in Development Thread: Sacred Seed:

Maybe a Seedless going Seeded doesn't just offer them the personal benefit of becoming part of the noble caste, but allows them the means to also take care of their families. Obviously their Seedless families will never be PART OF COURT, but it might be a route to better, more comfortable living among the Seedless, and it provides more incentive for people to try.

Yes! This could easily tie into @Coin's thoughts that all Seeded are given a stipend. And it would be enough to take care of most Seedless families. So some people attempt the Seeding because they're hoping to help their family out of poverty.

ALSO maybe there are whole lines of cast-offs wherein people are descended from pruned royals and the magic returns to the line -- maybe it was just dormant, you know -- and now they're back and maybe they feel they have a CLAIM TO THE THRONE.

Yes. Very much. The great-grandson of a Weeded son from the Queen of Flames two generations back, suddenly has the ability to summon fireballs and they are so taking on the current Queen, claiming their bloodline is more pure... because maybe her line was a cadet line because that previous Queen couldn't produce a Seeded child, or was usurped b/c of trying to keep her second Seedless child...