Best posts made by Macha

I'm falling apart. I go from angry to wanting to sob, to wanting to just lay in bed and let myself die.
Part of it is being out of a certain medication (without the birth control, the hormones go whackadoodle), because of stupid prior auth and a doctor's office fucking off.

But I know a huge chunk of it is everything going on. My dog is awesome, but a good conversationalist he's not. My roommates basically work/come home/hide in their room together. Which is their right, but it makes me feel even more isolated. I'm a person who stays home a lot, but being told I HAVE TO, bumps up against my Defiance disorder thing I can't remember the name of. Clearly, I'm staying in, but I don't have to /like it/ sort of shit.

@surreality The local grocery chain carries them. So I'm lucky - they have both - ice cream and non.

I want to go see my nephew. He's almost 7 months old now, and I haven't seen him in almost 3 months. That's so much missed.

@surreality I admit the Daniel Sharman is how I heard about it. I like him (saw him in Teen Wolf before CW). I want to get into it.

I am hitting the limits to bursting. I'm stressed out, and depressed and keep bursting into tears. And I feel trapped.

One of us, one of us...

@Rinel They didn't want to put me on regular ADD meds, because I am on an anxiety med. Ask about Wellbutrin? (I am on the generic version) It's not a perfect fix, but it has helped some.

I've been working on a project lately that has me neck deep in 80s music. Rush, Eddie Money, Ratt, Oingo Boingo, Poison, Boston, Aerosmith... Spotify playlists!

I will say when I need totally juvenile giggles and good music? Ninja Sex Party. They've been used a lot, lately, to try and keep my sense of humor.

'My' Chinese place closed with the pandemic. And no where else I have tried have measured up. Sad.

@tek I don't know where you live, but there may be laws about him using the unit as a Air BNB - if it was formally an apartment. Apparently there's a huge shortage of livable places, because people are doing what he's doing.

@JinShei Like can we get a streaming trail cam or something? I could use the calm!

@Kanye-Qwest I wonder if my dad was ADD - he never seemed to have much concept of time passing unless there was a clock [--] that close to his face.

See, I have this GUILT thing - i procrastinate, and I know I shouldn't and and and...

@faraday I'm realizing now, with this thread, how many ADHD signs there are in my family.

We have something very close to Faraday time. We just call it "LastName Time"

@JinShei And so I'm reading a groupon email. And they have 'Dad' shirts. And I'm almost crying now, because there's a perfect one. "They call me Dad because 'Partner in Crime' makes me sound like a bad influence." - My dad would have loved that shirt and rocked it hard core.

I'm just angry at my stepmother. She asked the kids about how we wanted to handle his ashes. We all agreed to spread half on my mother's grave with her, and then my stepmother could have the other half to have buried with her when she goes. - She backed out and didn't do it. So I can't even go 'visit' him at my mom's grave, either.

I have smoked my fair share of pot. My dad used to get me to smoke with him at like 2am, so we could both get some sleep.

I smoke now when I'm in such amounts of pain, that there's nothing else I can do. (I have no real painkillers.) It makes me want Raspberry Toaster Strudels (every damn time), and makes me want to just lay around and space out.

Because I smoke it so sparingly, it doesn't take much, but if I smoke too much (like I do with my sisters), I get that whole 'oh shit everyone is gonna know' paranoia going.

However, I have a friend who smokes weed every day, not /quite/ all day, but close (medical marijuana for his pain, and he grows his own as he lives in Cali). That mofo can still get so high he forgets what character he is, in the video game he's playing - when the character icon is on the screen. It never fails to amaze me (and make me jealous). But when things start to get sour, he will slam the snark/nasty hammer down - he's super reactive to that stuff.

@Sunny I wish my doctor's would consider the mj for pain.Trying to get referred for pain management is a joke. I've got two painful autoimmunes that I'm diagnosed with, and my doctor thinks I may have a third (please gods, no), but I can't get medical MJ? I don't WANT Morphine

Uh, but I digress. Sorry

@Wretched I have a TERRIBAD habit of not eating until it's way past time I should have (Bad diabetic behavior). So lunchables are quick and easy way to eat while I work, so I don't crash out.

@SuperiorHuron Nutella would jack my sugars. Chicken nuggets are bad enough.

Dear Boss, dumping 600 cases for me to pull up and call twice (and no ,you can't call them 2x on the same day, on top of the extra extra heavy 'normal' workload for the month, and then putting the shit my teammate didn't do on me? Not helping.

He tries, but.. jesus.

Man, this thread just makes me feel better. I feel understood