Posts made by Macha

Once I move, there will be an Etsy or... something. I suck at setting things up. But I have zero room with everything as it is, atm.

Please come back. Come out of the darkness, man.

@yourmamasayswhat You can share your happy with me, and I will just be happy that good things are happening.

You were an awesome roleplayer, and a pretty cool person. I'm sorry we lost touch when the game slowed to a crawl, and I hope you're out there somewhere!

Having someone care enough to support me, trust me, and help me.

I am so beyond grateful, that it breaks my brain.

@wretched No, thank gods. All the productivity. i finally finished some thing that had been hanging for weeeeeeks.

@wretched In your world, maybe.

Yay for 3am bursts of creativity. I don't have Delayed Sleep Phase, clearly.

@cobalt ...that is some of the dumbest shit I've ever seen. even worse was some of the point prices for dumb shit.

Today, I woke up, and washed down a caffeine pill with some Diet Dr Pepper. And about a half hour later, drank a Monster ultra sunrise.

Holy shit. I got all my work for the DAY done, plus some new work I begged out of my boss, in less than 3 hours.

I never want to hear his ass complain about my time management again.

@ganymede
I now want to see that movie.

@too-old-for-this I am sorry you did not have a choice, when you were 16.

I am grateful you now have a choice, and you decided to be AWESOME to your kid.

I never stopped hearing about how 'lucky' I was to have somewhere to live, something to eat, etc. How I should be 'glad' I wasn't being 'worked as hard' as people my dad knew growing up. (No kidding, my dad used to tell me I was lucky we had a washer and dryer in the house, as my bio mom at the same age - had to take her stuff to the laundromat).

Irony? My parents used money from my bank account at times, to pay for their cars, the mortgage, etc. Yes, the social security checks from when my bio mom died were meant to take care of me. But they'd put what was left every so often in a bank account, and then crack into it later for things... while spending plenty o' money on cigarettes, and drinking, etc.

Same people that wouldn't fill out financial aid paperwork for me so I could apply to college. Because I didn't 'deserve' to go to college, I hadn't 'applied' myself enough in school. (Hello, untreated ADHD)

@derp So...

So could you FEEL me roll my eyes? I did it so hard, it hurt.

@derp Oh!

"You little bastards never gave me my due for being the one who decided to bring you into the world. This is all your fault!" ??

@wretched I'll survive. Only a few more days.

@derp WTF? Is she off bothering them now, because she's not getting what she wants as a reaction from you?

My ADHD is running on hyperdrive. Not hyperfocus, either. I am thinking about so many things on so many levels right now, that I'm completely overwhelmed, bursting into tears repeatedly because of the chaos in my head - and I CAN. NOT. STOP.

Oh hey, ADD, depression, anxiety collision site.

This is not good, y'all.

@derp It's weird. I don't know you. I'm neck deep in my own bullshit. But I seriously want to drag your mother out of the house by her ear, and kick her ass.

@vixanic I appreciate the thought. I really needed to get it OUT somewhere. Somewhere someone might understand the sheer breaking point of needing to literally scream.

Though if you have any energy/vibes/prayers to spare (whatever your personal mojo is) THAT would be super appreciated. I know I /can/ do it, but today is just kicking my ass some.