Posts made by mietze

The SR muxes and spinoffs of the 90s had oWoD levels of crazy. But they were pretty fun!

Small space-limited up to 15-20 player (with no alts) Fading Suns game here, concentrating less on the L&L noble politics and more on exploring a new system (so the prequel before the L&L stuff starts in earnest). Just do not have the energy or the know how to code the system. I pretty much just want to tell stories.

Maybe at some point i will have the energy to continue learning code/thinking about adaptations but for right now realistically its not in the cards.

@Arkandel "it only affects me" was the argument against mandating car seat belt use and child car seats. (I'm old enough to remember it and how many people pouted and were extremely concerned about their freedom and ability to do with their families how they wished also). But it doesn't just affect that person. Bodies ping ponging around in a crashing/rolling vehicle kill others who might be wearing their restraints. In certain circumstances even in a painful sudden stop, the driver not being ejected means that they may be able to retain enough control of their vehicle longer or after to lessen the impact to others. First responders still have to pick up the pieces of adults and children even if they died free, that has an impact. Lessening injuries and deaths for lower speed impacts has an effect too.

I wish people were more cognizant that when it comes to safety issues and public health issues there's very few things that "just affect me."

I think that certainly in the US the culture we have created is one in which we will now reap the consequences. But honestly the people that most "deserve" those consequences are never the ones that will pay them. I'm watching the behavior of my extended family this week and I'm sure the next, and I can't be sad anymore, just numb. But I'm feeling that about a lot of covid impact stuff now, because I'm still dealing with the impact of losing 14 clients in the first 2 months that it became news in the US, dealing with phones and seeing clients i knew lose everything and talk suicide on the phone and be able to do nothing to help them. I'm glad I'm in a job where I do not have to deal with that so directly, but I also know there are families with kids in our care who are deniers or what's the big dealers, so I have resigned myself to our center being hit at some point.

I really worry for our front line health professionals 6 months out. Especially the ones now getting abused by patients Nd family members whose cognitive dissonance is being torn from them so they need to scapegoat the staff. I imagine what I'm working through is less than a quarter of what they do.

This year is the first time in 15 years that I'm not feeding people/hosting friendsgiving. It is too risky for others since eldest will be home from college (I'm more worried about him tbh since his school is phenomenal at keeping everyone safe, but he's still someone who traveled from out of area) and now that I work in child care I'm probably the most risky person for people to be around.

We got a nice turkey, I do have a big household, so I will be able to cook but I can't really think about it for too long or else I get really deeply depressed and teary. Sometimes being an extrovert sucks. We might get to do a turkey dinner porch delivery or two though. In the large scheme of things I know this is a shitty thing to feel so sad about, but.

My eldest takes Adderall as a young adult and did not start until he was 17. No negative side effects and honestly the relief and transformation was pretty mind blowing. He was very reluctant to try medication and we did not want to push. It took a little while to figure out the dosing but it has been a life changer for him. And no, no zombie effects.

I took Wellbutrin for it as an off label (stimulant drugs do not sit well with my chemistry) until I wanted to start a family. I'm really the only person i personally know whose brain LOVES bupropion and I never have side effects from it (obv I'm not the only one though, its just that most folks I know have horrible side effects from it.) It is a wonder drug for me personally.

So I would say there are options. Not everyone will respond well to stimulants but I think the vast majority of people will. If stimulants are not something you want to try there are alternatives but uts like any other brain chemistry thing, you might have some trial and error for awhile. Having both seen and experienced the difference in quality of life though if you are suffering it's definitely worth a shot esp if non medication coping strategies aren't working to the level you need them at.

@Derp i heard so but...I dunno. Not going to relax until everything is over if that makes sense.

Always nice to find out the next day that actually, the urgent care does not take the specific product of your current insurance when they said that they did take it (and the insurance you have as a stopgap for this month before your new employer insurance kicks in next month's site is also similarly super confusing and of course their member service number was closedwhen you needed to head in).

So maybe I'm paying for a ER like visit including a CT scan and all that jazz out of pocket (hopefully to be reimbursed some)? At least I wasn't admitted but I still kinda want to cry.

Fuck you, American Healthcare "system".

And if the ACA detonates before December 1st im well and truly fucked for life. Won't be the only one though.

On the upside I totally rocked an interview today for the position I wanted before I got my bank job, and the hours are perfect for what i need.

I may be changing jobs again. I hoped that the schedule change would be enough to take significant stress off of the family, but it's still not enough to deal with the realities of distance schooling and my district's inflexibility that is driving us crazy along with the primary level teachers I am certain.

I'm so tired. I'm trying to be a good mom, I'm trying to safeguard my kids' education, I'm trying to not drop complete out of the workforce and lose the meager gains I've been able to make in the last 7 years after being a stay at home parent for so long.

But you know, I'm just fucked. Fuck 2020. Fuck fucking covid.

Netflix docuseries Cheer is amazeballs. Probably helps if you are southern or grew up knowing people who did athletic cheerleading, but I think even if not--I am a documentary hound and honestly this was a very nice one that I needed in the sea of others I've dove into lately.

I hate having to play What's That Smell in the fridge. Its fucking clean! And still I am having to play this game while also home sick. I guess it means its not with the coronavirus, so that is good on balance.

Lawsuit document here: https://www.scribd.com/document/480694976/Weis-and-Hickman-v-WoTC

Interesting reading. Not sure how unusual it is but.

OMFG I got reassigned to a different age group (after I was asked), since that is where the center needed the stable coverage. So instead of preschoolers (who i love), I get to play and cuddle babies and young toddlers all day (People who know me RL also know that this puts me over the moon!!!) I think my stress level just went down again.

Came into work today with an inbox full of nice notes and well wishes since word has apparently gotten out beyond my branch that tomorrow is my last day. Not regretting leaving at all, and new job will start on Monday, but it is nice to know that peolle enjoyed working with me.

Just got an offer on a new job, giving my 2 weeks notice tomorrow. I will miss my little boss and my other coworkers, and will have to work a little longer but will still get benefits, but no more being ruled by cross sales and survey nps score hell.

When I started playing, there were no wikis or even websites really on most of the games I played. CG was done by rooms on the game. You were often required to write lengthy bgs that some poor bastard had to read (or not).

Almost all action and plot was staff "judged". If you did any sort of combat or needed an adjudicated scene you were placed in a timestop that could last for hours, days, or in one case with me 4 weeks.

There was no posted logging. Or jobs/requests or trackers, or events code with reminders.

Harassment and especially unwanted sexual harassment was something to be expected and put on your big girl pants and tolerate and was not generally grounds for removal of the harasser. It was acceptable on many games to make pcs that were flagrantly racist and lgbtq-phobic stereotypes.

The hobby has functionally and socially changed a lot and will continue to do so and in some respects has a long way to go. Some of the changes l love. Some took some getting used to.

So again I think old timers might grumble a bit, but in my observation even those who won't shut up their complaining will still play, if padt behavior is any indication.

No more than it is now.

If people can adapt to no ooc masquerade and having wikis, various versions of rules, and now non-"live" scenes, more open sheet games, ect...

I mean will some people throw tantrums and some even quit, sure?

But of course people would adapt. Would it bring in a ton of new people I do not think so.

If you want to find a place to play, and are feeling down because you can't connect on the games you have tried, due to timing or whatever, it's okay to just ask for that support.

There really is not a need to extrapolate and carastrophize to OMG HOBBY IS DYING. Just like if you are struggling on an individual game with finding a place or consistency in RP it probably will not gain you anything by going on pub and saying THERE IS NO RP ON THIS GAME NOBODY IS DOING ANYTHING WHY AM I EVEN HERE.

But as mushing is full of people who really can't ask for help without making it a big deal of the hobby/other people failing, i do think this is why this conversation comes up frequently and has in the last 26 years I've been mushing.

The hobby has been on its last legs since the 90s. I am sure that at some point it will be replaced when everyone just jacks into the cybersphere and can have the full experience of being whoever they want for a couple of hours, cheaply. Until then there will always be a subset. Yeah a lot of us are dying out of middle and old age people diseases and health issues. But i have also RPed with players in the last couple of years who are young enough to be my kids, and more than one as well. And I have yet to play any game in the last 10 years where I did not meet many people that I'd never rped or met before.

I do not think it's growing, but im not sure why it would or needs to. I do wish there was an easily accessible list with no commentary, since I think places like msb can and do create issues for good games due to hyping up expectations or sometimes problems, but that will always be with as as well.

I got my eldest moved in to his college apt/dorm today and didn't cry until after I was back on the road home!