Best posts made by saosmash

@reversed I can't remember if that was me or if it was the person whose character I rewrote, but I do think it's funny.

@crawfish AAAAAAAAAAAAAH

@surreality Uggggggggh.

Signed a contract to double my income and also my workload. The torrent is already beginning. The excitement has worn off and left me with muppetflailing panic.

I'm working with a new case management software and working on inputting all of my cases to it while trying to stay above water. Organiziation and calendaring were ALREADY a problem for me BEFORE I did this.

What have I done. Lol.

@Auspice i... the entire internet is full of porn, what??

@cobalt

Of course, now Arx's roster process involves creating relationships to other roster characters, so you can expect to see future CGs from me with more canonically gay flirtation, I guess...

@silverfox TMI PERSONAL INFO TIME I GUESS

I got diagnosed as an adult... in early 2021?

A few years ago (17? 18?) I went to a neuropsychologist, which I had to pay for on my own nickel because my insurance at the time didn't cover it. I spent an exorbitant amount of money and got a diagnosis that was for "neurodevelopmental disorder NOS" abt which I went into kind of a spiral and did nothing for a few years. Ultimately went to a specialist in treating ADHD, got diagnosed with ADHD, ASD and GAD.

My GP was never discouraging particularly but also did not, I think, really believe my self diagnosis. She just kind of ... never wanted to deal with it? Or didn't know how? I don't know, honestly. She was a very helpful doctor in many ways and I think I probably was not communicating with her well around this for a variety of reasons but it is what it is.

I did find that my mental health therapist WHEN I finally got one was very encouraging abt going through the steps to get a diagnosis. Many, many physicians are weirdly resistant to messing with mental health at all unless they are embrace a more holistic "whole person" practice.

Finding a specialist and getting diagnosis is absolutely worth it. My ADHD treating psych also encourages meditation, exercise, diet, etc, but like, ... all of those are all part of treating the underlying issues, which are not resolvable because the neurotype is, as my doctor is firm about, not a disease so much as a different way the brain functions. He likes to say that we ADHD folks would have been super useful to have around if we were hunter-gathering.

Treatment has not solved all or even half my problems. But it had helped me be more aware of what issues there are and helped me to apply structures to deal with those issues. Also when I am on my meds, there are certain super anxious-making thought derails that happened with interruptions in my premedication life that have now simply entirely gone away.

@reversed It's a beautiful CG and I'm v glad you did it.

@thesuntsar omfg

@SinCerely SORRY I thought being vocal was better than just hitting it.

@thesuntsar THE BASTS

Oh my God the amazing fantasy of a game that ALL of my friends want to play...

Agreed w/@scissors. I've not run into issues as a woman on MU**s. But I've also only played on games that were incredibly female dominated or, in one memorable case, roughly m/f equivalent. I have run into bad experiences on forums, on twitter, during my brief period of time playing on MMOs rather than singleplayer games.

My comic shop is a safe space with a welcoming, supportive environment and multiple employees who are either female or visibly genderqueer. My tabletop group is full of dudes but they are quite well-behaved.

@ganymede I feel guilty about charging what I charge, I can never raise my prices, lol.

I was surprised and delighted when Galavant got season 2 -- I'm not shocked that it didn't beat the odds for season 3.

I'm sad about Agent Carter though. It's a way better show than SHIELD. SIgh.

I accidentally left my character idling in a public room when someone happened by to RP and what happened thereupon was the funniest scene I have had in a dog's age.

4 day jury trial. Prosecution case has completely gone to shit but the judge rules against us on every motion. Stayed late at work every night this week writing motions and typing pages and pages of transcripts because I'm faster than getting it from the court. Judge wants us back an hour before opening yesterday and today so we can argue motions. I have literally lost count of how many motions to dismiss we've filed in the last three days (pro tip: if you forget to have your victim point at my dude and say that guy ... if you destroy a bunch of physical evidence... if you provide 600 pages of discovery on day 2 of trial ... well, never mind, I guess. And that chain of custody receipt doesn't matter either, just let it all in!) and the shitshow just keeps going on ...

... meanwhile while I am writing one of these motions last night I get an email from my dad that somehow my apartment was flooded while I was not there. I shriek WHAT and then get back to work because who has time for details.

I get home at about 9:15 last night to discover that yes, my apartment is flooded. But not my apartment so much as just my bedroom. My cat has been locked in my formerly cat free guest room (for allergic people who want to sleep here without dying) for hours. My stuff is all over the living room because workmen moved it all out of the flood zone. The only actual casualties so far appear to have been a phone charger, my hardback Hamilton book, and a set of Tarot cards I bought as a RP aid for Arx (I swear this made sense at the time).

The flooding appears to have been caused by the negligence of a person who shall remain nameless but I will be clear here that it was NOT ME.

All my rp obligations are in the shitter and my co GM had to mainline instant coffee to run my npc last night. Also, I'm pretty sure that the jury is going to convict.

Waah.

"You can't do that" is a terrible thing to have to say as a GM. I feel like the longer I do this the more I learn to deal with players running off on tangents I don't expect and I'd so much rather come out at the end of a TP with a story we built together than force the herd of cats to do what I want. It's definitely something that has taken some learning, though, since I started.

I'm glad you're taking care of yourself, @Monogram.