I wish I could play more multiplayer games.
Overwatch, Rocket League, etc.
I usually have to be drunk to play them (so as to shut up parts of my brain). Otherwise I end up wanting to alt-tab to this or look at that or do other things. Focusing on ONE THING for an ENTIRE MATCH (or consecutive matches ala Rocket League) is just beyond me. It's frustrating because I wanna play shit with my friends, but doing just one... single... thing... for hour(hours) on end is just beyond me.
I played League of Legends for a while and as the game environment evolved into these 45 minute, hour long matches I had to stop because I would end up so fidgety I'd get agitated and upset. It was a game I was pretty good at, too!
I haven't gone back to Elite Dangerous, either, even though I fucking love that game. I'm limited, really, to games with really short matches (maybe part of why I love Mario Kart so much?) or single-player pausable games because I just...... can't do things that require I focus on one thing for too long.
I hate my brain.