@arkandel said in Mutant Genesis (X-Men):
@ixokai You're a regular on MSB and you're worried about being judged?
Actually, yes.
I know you're sorta joking, but seriously, no joke.
There's a relationship you set up between you and a game, between you and staff, between you and other players.
Little things bug me.
I played on the 100 and really enjoyed it, but every sunday the "most cookies this week" would post, and I'd feel this weird pressure-judgement feeling that was unpleasant.
To not feel this little unpleasant feeling, I'd go in for the big scenes that I don't enjoy or feel good doing, but, the little pleasant feeling at the end of the week when I rank on the rankings, positive!
I'm as susceptible as anyone to feedback loops, but I'm a LOT more sensitive to the feedback that is closer. If staff puts itself into a position as Judge of you being Good Enough, this is a relationship that my personal experience says leads to an environment that is both hostile and unpleasant.
The distant (removed from being immediately accountable?) judgment of MSB is a different thing. I can look at MSB judgment with a grain of salt and in a different context then I look at my relationship with staff on a game I play.
Ya'll have no authority over me: the extent of your power is to not like me. Whatever. I don't like you either. If I play a game, I submit to their rules. If the staff begins that situation as gatekeeper, protector, we're good. If they begin that situation as judge and controller, nopenopenopenope.
I have my hangups like anyone here.