Best posts made by Macha

@surreality I wish I could upvote this a million.

@Warma-Sheen Well, when you consider a LOT of the MU-threads of the title before, was a lot of negative talk about things, people playing there or here, and so on?

To be honest, if I /am/ playing somewhere, I'm not likely to talk about it. For reasons I would feel are obvious.

Dire Straits - So far away, and Brothers in arms
The Cure - Burn
Gary Allan - Life ain't always beautiful.
Hozier - Arsonist's Lullabye.

@faraday That was a super interesting link, thanks.

Is it weird I can sort of picture things in my head, sometimes, but reading descs.. the puzzle pieces don't click together?

@Lotherio Your mother lovebone brought me back to "Say Hello 2 Heaven" By Temple of the dog.
Also: In your Eyes by Peter Gabriel.

I have finally been offered to be evaluated for medications. So I am hoping to get something to help me with my ADD.

@Wretched I finally have an appointment to look at medicine options, so I may be able to finally be on something for anxiety or ADHD. I don't really want anything for depression, since it can make you less receptive to your own brains joy juice, but the other two possibilities super excite me .

I appreciate the support. Just freaked me out, because I hadn't had one this bad in MONTHS.

This is also me. I take forever to decide what I want to eat until it's crunch time, etc.

But the moment there is crisis? Boom! Focus, snap decision making, take control of what there is to be controlled.

@Tyche Spike and crash. SPIKE and CRASH. And no, because the side effects of some of the meds I'm on can make me feel dizzy like a crash, but my sugars aren't down low. And sometimes I just feel exhausted, sluggish and off balance, but my sugars aren't High. You'll note I said shaky/dizzy LIKE a crash. I have also not felt symptoms when I'm at like ...60. So I can not depend on just how I 'feel'.
Sympathetic? I'm very discreet when I test/inject. i turn my back to the rest of the room and huddle down anyhow. You literally need to be standing right next to me, looming, to see anything.
I have insulin pens, so the needle is pretty tiny, and I don't uncap it until it's out of sight anyhow. (I wear dressed and leggings, so it's easy to do this.)

It's not causing drama to take care of a medical need discreetly. The only reason anyone knew I was doing it, was my boss asked me when I crashed one day, to let her know when I needed 60 seconds or so to test.

People like you are the fucking reason the ADA exists.

@Tyche
well, let's see. My doctors were treating me as a type 2 versus a type one for almost a decade. Add in two doctors completely disagreeing on what conditions I have, and a slew of medication changes (that never seem to end. I'm sure you know steroids are no good for a diabetic, but that's the only thing they'll put me on to help the humira/pain levels, and they keep changing the dosage).

As for medical work problems, THERE IS A PROBLEM when they do not follow the ADA guidelines. My problems are simple. I'm trying to get my diabetes under control (which with changing medication/doses, I'm sure you know is incredibly difficult. If you'll admit it). There isn't any cure for fibro or ankylosing, and pain management is a joke, unless I want on hard core stuff like straight up morphine.

So until you're in my levels of uncontrollable, physical pain every day (which you also probably know fucks with sugars), and you're actually living my life, how about you fucking go back to preaching about how you never need to test or inject in front of anyone, because clearly you're the example all diabetics need to strive to become. OR some such bullshit.

Well, I put my foot down. I now am taking Wellbutrin, starting tomorrow morning.

@Cupcake My therapist worries because I cling to the same humor/deflection even when I'm talking about the dark things. That I deliver it all logically.

Then, at the end of the session today, she remarked that it might be a good thing, right now. I might need it to cling to. So something feels normal. I'm just such a mess, right now.

So - fired for sugar crashes. Now I need a termination letter (which they didn't give me) for unemployment and any other social service stuff I might qualify for, being completely broke.

I call to speak to the HR bitch - she's not in, but my former manager says she'll send it, the girl tells me. I tell her to relay to the manager that I would like the exact wording. AKA - Sugar crashes, phone calls when you crash, etc etc.

We'll see how that works. I'm just annoyed with life in general, because my auto loan tried to take their payment a week early, so that was a million phone calls to the bank to dispute it, reverse the overdraft fees, blah blah blah. I'm still broke, but now I'm not negative broke.

@Otrere Time for a classic. Talking Heads - Psycho Killer

@hedgehog Phil Collins - I wish it would rain down

@Ganymede IDGAF what he said, that was so far out of line, Garrett is lucky someone got in the way, or he could have done serious damage and gotten worse than an indefinite suspension.

@Auspice I would LOVE that weird ass thing.. but my roommate would likely stab himself on the horn.

@Auspice I am with @RightMeow I would be all in for the socks.

Went for an interview that seemed to go pretty well. Well enough that they had me interview with a second manager. I didn't hear anything last week, but hey, it was the holiday. I call today to check in with the agency - Oh, she didn't call you? She should have called you last week to tell you they're going in another direction. Have a nice day.

FUCK YOU.