@wretched Mine goes more like...
Body: You know you've been up for like 18 hours now... that sleep thing should happen.
Brain: Ooooooooo, you know what we haven't seen in foreeeeeeeever? ARACHNAPHOBIA! PUT IT ON RIGHT NOW
Body: But.. sleep...
Brain: OH LOOK ITS YOUNG JULIAN SANDS! AND YOUNG JEFF DANIELS! AND YOUNG JOHN GOODMAN!!
Body: siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh ...welp... sure, lets make this the fourth 20 hour day in a row.
@ganymede said in Autism and The MU* Community:
@too-old-for-this said in Autism and The MU* Community:
...you're not wrong. I have come to despise socks.
I understand, but I meant that I've come to the point where I get sexual gratification from the slightest stimuli.
I'll let you know if/when I get to that point. There's a similar but not quite same sensation from stepping out of jeans and into sweatpants.
@ganymede ...you're not wrong. I have come to despise socks.
@faraday I have a model of sock that largely works for me, but they still have to be precisely organized because the toeshape DOES change depending on the foot you wear it on! So like.... I can't put a sock that's conformed to my left foot onto my right foot. Yes, I can tell. Yes, it drives me nuts.
I've seen seamless socks, so far none of them have been made in a manner that doesn't still bother me. And most of my socks are either compression or athletic socks as I'm prone to edema in my feet and ankles.
@clarity They are divine. Soft as silk, sleek as satin, and they only get better with each washing! Also, SO good if you're like me and can't sleep if you're too warm.
@Ninjakitten I still can't do it because I can still feel the seam against my toes. v_v I have to be able to maneuver the seam to JUST the right spot. Otherwise, its a sandal day.
@wretched The number of times I have bought something to replace a thing that I later found... I have an entire drawer dedicated to cables and plugs that were meant to replace a thing that wasn't actually gone. The money I have spent on buying a digital version of something that I have on dvd. Or even just having to have a digital copy of something on multiple platforms (Epic & Steam & Uplay+ are making a KILLING off of me) because my brain says I need to have it on both. Buying more socks that I don't actually need and then never return. OH. The money I have spent on LOUNGEPANTS that are never worn....
@rinel Thousands, easily. I have, right now, a $40 sports bra in the backseat of my car that never quite made it to the Amazon return location. >.>
@clarity I have bamboo sheets for similar reasons. My issue with socks lies in the seams and the toe-feel. >.>
@greenflashlight I have found over the years that I can be attracted to both men and women, despite my preference for sexual partners being men. I have absolutely been hanging out in public with a boyfriend and pointed to a woman and gone 'godDAMN that woman is hot'... much to their general confusion, because I haven't otherwise ever indicated a desire for women.
That usually spirals into a discussion on how I can find women very attractive without it being my normal proclivity.
It happens! Its not always comfortable or convenient, but you are definitely not alone. 
@silverfox said in Autism and The MU* Community:
Huh.
I wish I could say this to a particular parent because this is legit. Just this morning they were describing how sometimes their kiddo has to put on several pairs of socks before they find one that feels right (thus leading them to be late to school), plus a lot of other things you guys described.
SOCKS ARE THE DEVIL!
Seriously, if you knew how much time I spend having to find the EXACT RIGHT pair of socks out of all of my socks... I will literally wear a single pair multiple days in a row because I know they fit together and I might just cry if I have to keep trying to re-match all my socks together every day...
@faraday Very fair! I've become super rigid on my clothing requirements the older I get. Only bootleg or wideleg jeans. But I can wear leggings just fine. Which is because I am that odd height that's kinda between 'sizes'... so petite is too short and regular is too long... but I can't stand to have a bunch of stiff denim bunched up at my ankles so the 'normal' cut for jeans drives me nuts. Don't have that issue with leggings, though I get a different issue with them in that the waist is always too high... because fashion says bigger = longer torso?
@silverfox LOOKIT THE LEGG ! Just totally relaxed and toe beans out!
@faraday Sooooooooo, to showcase just HOW different autism can be.... I can't stand to wear loose shoes. I have to have them laced up tightly, have to be able to feel them around my foot, or it bothers my brain. Its not uncomfortable physically but I have literally refused to go places because I couldn't get my shoes to feel right.
I received my diagnosis last month. I've known for years, I raised two boys that both fall on the spectrum. But it was nice to have it medically confirmed. I'm hopeful that therapy, and some light medication, will help take some of the burden of having to make all my own coping mechanisms all the time. Which would be nice, because after 38 years of self-coping, I am exhausted. I don't have the option of a job that allows me to be by myself, or just work quietly at my desk. So adulthood has been a nightmare of trying to explain to employer after employer why my work history is as everchanging as it is. I'm hoping this will help end that nightmare.
@aria I'm more a fan of reruns of Star Trek episodes over True Crime podcasts, but otherwise I am SO down for the nap bus.
@silverfox said in Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff:
@L-B-Heuschkel I think hit it on the head. He jsut can't see that other people also need help - if they're not as disabled as he is, then they're not worthy of assistance.
This is something that we've dealt with with my oldest son. He's not physically disabled, but he has a number of mental/emotional disorders and was told by psychologist after psychologist that 'it wasn't his fault' that he was the way he was. Which is true but also very misleading. So rather than learning coping mechanisms for his various disorders, he spent a lot of his childhood believing that how he was, his behaviors and actions, was how he would always be and that he should just always be forgiven because that's how he is and its not his fault. They really kinda screwed him over by not clarifying better that while the disorders are not his fault but also that he has the ability to mitigate and control his actions/reactions, and that he should do so.
All of which is to say that I had to spend the better part of his teenage years trying to undo the damage of his younger years by showing him that even though he can't control the thoughts or feelings, he can combat and mitigate them through various means. But he still carries a level of... entitlement... about his disability that it seems like your brother shares. So I definitely sympathize with trying to correct a lifetime of thought paths and beliefs that are dismissive of and/or harmful to others.
@wretched My current Bruise Clues... 'how did I get a bruise on my thigh?!'
@wretched I hate that eye contact is still a required social construct. Even just casual conversation with someone I enjoy being around and I'm having to forcibly remind myself that they expect me to like... look at them. My brain recoils every time.
