Posts made by RightMeow

Today's peeve ---

My anxiety and what I do to myself. -- So I guess my peeve is myself?

People will say I'm upset at X behavior. Or X happened and I'm upset.

My Brain: I immediately go -- OMG it's me. They hate me. Should I apologize? Wait, what if they dont want to talk to me and then that's harassing. Oh no. I said a thing and got no reply, I overstepped. QUICK apologize. No wait, should I leave it be? AGGGHHHH

My logic: Umm.. you haven't talked to that person. That is not even in your behavior pattern. It cannot in any conceivable way be you.

My brain: But what if it IS my behavior pattern and I just don't recognize it because I'm behavior blind:

My logic: ....

My logic: So xanax or shots?

When you are having silent anxiety (you think X person hates you/your RP/etc but don't say anything) and an OOC conversation starts on a different topic. Then it comes up there and you realize that's not the case just your anxiety but you talk it out.

And everyone is awesome OOC and good OOC and adult about it OOC.

It's a good day when things can resolve with no harsh feels, insults, etc and just good conversation.

@Auspice

Is there a resource in your town helping with meds maybe?

Just a vent. Not looking for a fix.

So I decided to take leave. I've mentioned this. --- My four week /unpaid/ leave is soon to be up. I message my employer and go, okay. I guess I come back on the 19th.

I get a message back from my boss. That they are happy to have me back but this is still a very high risk job area. She's willing to extend my leave if I want.

Now part of me is like awww.. thanks for caring a little bit. The other part of me is like, I need money. Bills, cars, insurance, etc don't pay themselves. Since I'm on a 'leave' I don't get unemployment. Hello rock. Hello hard place. Fuck Covid.

@Ganymede

I'm not a lawyer at all. I don't even play one on tv. I don't think they are acting in bad faith. I mean they didn't tell me they would pay me on the leave and then not do it. They didn't force me on the leave. I took it voluntarily.

I'm sure everything will be fine. I just really don't want to get this illness and I also want to be able to make bills. I'm not the only one with this struggle. It's just like I said, sad and disappointing.

So I'm home because I'm high risk in a high risk job. No problem. Executive orders came down to pay out unemployment because of Covid and state of emergency. - However, now my employer is contesting it because it's technically a 'leave' not a 'firing'. SMH

Under executive orders here for Covid, they don't even have to pay out for it as a business. I paid my taxes, etc. I'm not angry, I'm just disappointed. Since the option really is lose my job as it is to get paid a very small share of what I normally make. Or go back to work in a very high risk and essential job when I'm very high risk (immune disorder, lung issue, stuff, things). It's just frustrating is all.

Like I said, I'm not angry. I'm just disappointed I think and a bit put out that it's my health or my paycheck/bills/whatever. Just venting.

@silverfox

Upvote. Not because I like your sad, but because it's the only way to virtual hug.

@Ganymede

I get that. Also, you aren't wrong peeving or anything.

This is a dangerous thing with the exposure.

@Ganymede

I think it might be financial too. My friend's insurance is like $40 for a private practice/clinic and $200 for a hospital. If they aren't sure they have it.. I'm not sure.

@silverfox Who knew one book would do this?

What is animal crossing?

I'm not going to talk on the society/political systems. I am curious about the movie industry though, specifically movie theaters. With movies going straight to streaming for $20 (approximately) a pop. It shows releases can come to the person's home. People now can purchase surround sound that is as good (or better) than theaters. They can order big screen tvs. They have their own snacks. --- My family and I were talking about this the other day. - What kind of (if any) impact you think this is going to hit in that industry?

@silverfox is alright. I guess. Sometimes. Maybe.

Ah the person who dares the masked Devotion to go spend a day in the shrine of Limerance. #Irony

@thesuntsar

I mean, you say that like it's not the same thing. Love hurts.

@thesuntsar @silverfox

.... Why am I left out?! I thought we were all in love.

@silverfox Time for an attainable goal.

@thesuntsar

I'm not saying yes.
I'm not saying no.
I am saying you know too much.

@thesuntsar

It's just a joke between us. No one is killing anyone. @silverfox asked me to app the wife. I said no. Then I counter suggested we just kill her off. Third wife is trophy wife. We've been playing the game OOC since. IC this is NOT a thing.

@silverfox

HEY. I never /said/ poison. I said sometimes people eat or drink things that don't agree with them. It could be you know they choke, they have an intolerance, theyarepoisoned, it goes down the wrong way. All matter of things.