I rarely sleep and if I do sleep, I wake up every few hours. It's always been like this. My brain is too anxious to let me sleep. Most doctors tell me that has a lot to do with my weight loss being so hard. -- Maybe I should look into a nose job or xanax.
Also depending on what study you read, the problem isn't meat and animal product. The problem is in grains and refined sugars. The fact the corn syrup is in a lot of stuff you wouldn't think is also where it comes in. Sugar is in a lot of our foods. A lot.
When it comes to bacon I"m more worried on the the sodium levels.
I think if a doctor told me I could stand to skip a few meals, it would be the last thing that doctor said to me. As in, I'd go to another one. I tend to gain and hold my weight because my sleep patterns are screwed up, I skip meals all the time and other things. So it's not always about the fork to mouth issues. Ugh.
I'm sorry. I know migraines suck (MRIs - I dislike those too). I was once walking with my friend and I got hit by one. I covered my eyes, doubled over and threw up because we were outside. I'm pretty sure my friend thought I was dying.
I'm so sorry you have to go through all of that and I hope they can adjust your meds, or find a cause to it when you go in for the MRI. You might want to see if they can drug you with something if you are having sound issues with the migraine.
but there's a kind of odd annoyance when you eat something, and unsure if it's good or not, you keep eating it.
That's how food poisoning happens.
Usually the code question in my world is:
How the hell did you break THAT?!
Same answer though, no clue.
It's hard but selfishly, I feel bad. I mean she was my friend. She was young. She was a single parent to a young daughter and I'm sad she's gone.
Unselfishly, she was ravished by this horrible disease and she just got tired of fighting so much. So hard. So she deserves to rest. Death is just always hard.
Thank you for your thoughts, I'd ask that you keep her daughter in prayers/thoughts/candle lighting. She's only eight and wrapping her mind around death, let alone cancer and her only parent (that she knows) dying; well, she's going to need the good thoughts.
My friend passed away from her fight with cancer this morning.
Fuck cancer.
I'm sorry you have a migraine. I understand and also have a love/hate of the migraine drug cocktail. For the pain, for the migraine and for the nausea, but geez do I love that moment that my hair doesn't hurt my brain.
I hope you feel better and it broke up the migraine so that it can fade out the rest of the way too. I personally like ice around forehead and temples with heat on the base of my head. It helps me. I'm not sure if that works for everyone though.
When you are in a situation that feels larger than you can handle and you aren't sure what to do. I hate those moments.
@ThugHeaven said in RL Anger:
Those pictograph like instructions had us looking at one direction for like 20 minutes, trying to figure out which one not to do, because the X was so faded you had to hold it up to the light to see it.
IKEA - The karma sutra of the building world. Sure, it sounds good at the time until you both have your heads sideways looking at the picture and wondering if your insurance will cover this accident.
It sounds like my dysthymia. It's a form of depression where you are depressed as your normal with moments of happy. So because it's your normal you don't realize you are depressed.
You describe my normal (not my current unemployed state). In my normal, I kind of feel out of touch with things. I'm not sad, it's just how it is. Normally people will say I'm happy because I'm 'on' most the time in my coping mechanism. It's a lot of me thinking that I should be happier (or sometimes even more disappointed) in how something is. I just have a static 'meh' feeling about most things. It took forever to come up with what it really was. The therapist that diagnosed it said it is functional, long-term depression. Your willpower is usually strong, so you've just found a way to cope and be successful. However, you are depressed 80% of the time or more.
Tough love is always harder on the person that has to give it. Being raised in an addict environment or a 'self-medicated' one. I get it. I'll keep you and yours in my thoughts. If you need to talk or vent, always an IM away.
No offense taken. I have gallows humor as it is. When I was diagnosed with something incurable - I sat in the hospital and planned my funeral. There's going to be karaoke. It's going to be songs like 'Never Gonna Give You Up', no one gets to pick their own music.... but no I know you weren't making light of it. I'm sorry for your partner, too. 
Cancer
I fucking hate cancer.
My friend who is all of 27 and a single mother of a 7 year old, is most likely not going to see Tuesday.
Also those that can, put good thoughts out, especially for her child.
Yes.
There have been times in my life (and now might be one too) where I'm just tired. I'm over it. I don't want to go and deal with one more bad doctor visit. It gets emotionally draining. So then either I ignore it, self-help it, etc.
But yes, Dear, I understand and I'm sorry you are dealing with that.
That sucks. I'm sorry. As I tend to be a die-hard optimist, I sometimes don't see the bad coming in the people I associate until it's too late. Then I still rationalize it for them.
Don't give up on all the people. I'm sorry you have to go through it though.
Y'all make me want to try Dilaudid now. Just for a day. One blissful day.
See? This is why I can't take drugs!