Posts made by Testament

Penalties killed it for the Ravens. Though one PI call maybe of been a touch ticky tack.

@Auspice That probably the best game of the week, though. I tried watching Browns/Rams and I'm pretty sure I dozed off.

Two Worlds is pretty horrible. There's actually a trick or glitch that you can beat the end game villain right in like first half hour of the game. Once you do, the game rolls to credits, which is actually kind of hilarious.

Personally, I'm going to say Elex. It suckered me in with a cool concept, and depressed me with horrible controls and really really bad voice acting.

That's probably the only real issue I have with it. Honestly, the fact that it can spawn multiple separate windows for com channels that I can physically move around makes up for any other issue I might have. I can't do that in Potato.

Though I do wish it had a spell checker. And it's always being updated which is nice.

Almost exclusively on home laptop via Duckclient(which I don't think gets enough love), occasionally Potato, but I prefer how spawn windows work in Duckclient as opposed to Potato.

Sometimes, briefly I'll log into web client via browser but I don't like doing since I know that my company monitors internet usage.

But I figure if I have coworkers using web broswers to listen to youtube or Spotify at their station, or other checking NFL score updates, I can log into some mush without getting pulled into an office and asking if I'm leaking insider trading information.

I think it's something I've thought about randomly, but to never anything more than surface depth. Mostly I chalk it up to usually what's happening with me.

Either I'm, A) Lazy and not in any real rush. Or B), I'm probably watching/doing something and not paying as much attention as I should be. This is me pretty much 80% of the time I'm in a scene.

I'm literally the worst.

My girlfriend bought Tool tickets for October. It was $200 and I'm still trying to figure out if this was a good idea or not. Partly because we're in the midst of moving at the end of the month and partially because I'm not sure we'll be able to to. I know we could probably sell them and make that money back, and maybe even thensome, but I'm not sure why I'm apprehensive. Because I've always wanted to see Tool.

But goddamn, Fear Inoculum is not good. It's...okay, but I think it's by far the weakest Tool album I've listened to. There's nothing that really grabs me like the last albums have. For all that people look down their nose on 10,000 Days, coming out of the gate with Vicarious and then Jambi is a great way to start an album. The new album just sounds like one long, ponderous song. Nothing exciting, nothing attention grabbing. Technically it sounds great, with a lot of concepts that are both new and very much in Tool's niche area. But it was just wasn't...interesting?

At this, and this plays into one of the reasons why it took so long to release this, is that the band members just hate each other at this point and couldn't agree on anything for the album and nobody was willing to bend for their 'creative vision'. What we got was the only thing they could agree on.

I should be excited about seeing Tool, but after the release of the album I'm...apprehensive?

My curiosity has been piqued. I will look at this when I get off work.

I started going to the gym again.

I hate myself.

I've spent the last 24 hours with a bout of nausea that I go in waves between wanting to throw up or break down sobbing.

I've already made an appointment with my counselor, but it may be a day or two until I can see her. In the meantime, I feel like I'm falling apart. I just need someone to talk to. I don't want or need answers, just someone to listen until I can get into my appointment.

The community is not my therapist, I know that. That's why I have one. But the one time when I can't see her right away and I'm going through something kind of messed up, all I can do is my best to not just go to pieces.

I don't know what to do.

When people stopped taking her seriously(which is about a few years ago)she needed to change her schitck. Need them clicks. Need that sweet sweet ad revenue.

She could do more benefit if she questioned CDPR's questionable workplace practices. Which has been a thing in the past. The whole Glassdoor thing from a year or two back.

The latest controversy revolving around CDPR with Rock Paper Shotgun telling Mike Pondsmith what he should be offended with the game he created.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDUTcFCdPpw

Original.

Theme.

Sci Fi.

That's all I want/need. Barring that, a game based in The Expanse theme.

@Sparks said in General Video Game Thread:

@egg said in General Video Game Thread:

I am incredibly excited about the FF7 remake, despite all of the sour grapes FFVI fanboys and girls who come out of the woodwork every time a new thing related to FF7 comes along...something something opera...something something Kefka...you know, FF7 has musical themes for every playable character, too.

waves FF6 banner anyway, albeit sullenly

Look, I'm just saying we've had a pre-smartphone phone game, a PSP game, the original PS game, two movies, a PS2 game, a smartphone game, AND now a remake of the original game. I'm a little Shinra'd-out, and I'm feeling the urge for some Magitek.

(Also, FF6 has better music, no matter how much a whoooole bunch of people want to say that One-Winged Angel is the definitive FF song. Terra's Theme is better, fight me.)

Shadow's Theme is better.

I will fite you over it.

I've documented at length the health of my lovable old man cat. He turned 16 this year. He had been having problems with a particular nasal infection since March, and after this morning, I took him in for his monthly check up. One urine and blood test later did not reveal good news. While my vet was happy that he had put on a pound of weight to ten pounds, she did note that he had some kind of infection in his kidney or bladder, his hematocrit count is going down which is a sign he's becoming anemic(which is a sign of cancer, but other things as well), vet's pretty sure he has a heart murmur which is just, nothing you can do about that at this point. And his nasal infection is still a thing.

He's going on two new medications, a new antibiotic that's stronger than the stuff he's been on. Along with a steroid. There's a risk it could make some of his issues worse, but it could also make a lot of his other issues better.

The elephant in the room is cancer, which my vet is very suspicious of. She's not certain, but she said if she had to theorize, the evidence she has seems to point to that. But again, she feels positive he can have awhile yet before all options are exhausted. Then again, she's not about expensive CAT scans or sonograms.

I guess I'm writing this because I'm trying to come to gripes with it. He's been with me for so long, and now I'm finally told that I have to start thinking about the end. Because he's starting to enter a downward slide with the eventuality that medications and treatment will not alleviate suffering. So I have to prepare myself to take him down the long walk.

And apart of me wants him to fight for as long as he can, and it's selfish to say it's more for me than for him. That I want him to rage against the dying of light. To not go gently into the good night. And that's wrong of me.

I don't expect him to live out the year. I'm thinking winter, if I"m lucky. I'll be really lucky if he's still here in 2020. But I have to be okay with that. He's doing okay now. Still eating, still hungry. Still drinking. Still sitting next to me. But one day, that's going to be here sooner than I'd like, he's going to be gone. And there will be a gaping hole in my chest.

At least the good news the vet told me is that he probably isn't in any real pain yet. That the worst thing pain wise is the ear irritation he has. So that's something.

I just wanted to rant. Because right now, I feel like I'm fighting something I can't win. Because I can't. Death plays for keeps.

Trying to get back into dating after a breakup two months ago and having absolutely zero luck. Four dating apps later and two dates later(both of which didn't work out)and I'm feeling pretty defeated.

Funny how my best relationships have come out of having dated another MUer in the past, but there is no way I'm doing that long-distance thing again.

Final Fantasy storylines, are in general, horrible. I'd say FF10 had the least idiotic/offensive storyline, while FF6(or 3 depending who you are)is arguably the best.

FF8's story is an indictment of it's time. Overwrough emo drivel that lacked it's own self-awareness of just how bad it really was. So far as non-sensical Final Fantasy storylines go, FF8 is right up there with FF13 and the inanity that has anything to do with Lightning.

That said, Triple Triad was pretty damn good.

Ghostwire would've been more interesting if they showed actual gameplay.

In fact a lot of the games I saw during the press conferences would've been more interesting if they had shown actual gameplay.

Trailers mean nothing.

Been on a big REM kick for the past couple of days.

Been a good couple of days.

@Rinel I've been fascinated with Chernobyl in a mildly unhealthy way since I was a teen in high school. The whole concept of what happened just intrigued me to something I still have trouble grasping. I could say the same about nuclear energy(but Chernobyl specifically), and who anything nuclear related really works. Sadly, it often contains concepts and science that are way above my head, and there are times I think should've followed my calling to be a nuclear physicist.

So the fact that this show gets so much of what actually happened right is so cool. A lot of the names and people in the show I had already known about from my study in it years ago, but it's something else to really see it reenacted in such a faithful way.

I still want to see more close up pictures of the number four reactor years later, because I'm all but certain it hasn't been touched or even gotten near. I've never seen photos of it up close after the incident, and I doubt I ever will. And if there are photos of it, I suspect they're likely still classified, locked away in some Soviet-era vault. But even still to this day, I want to know what it looks like after, not just far away aerial shots where you can't see any kind of detail.